04-27-2017, 01:12 PM
The healing and clearing that is going on is not exactly pleasant, but I guess necessary for me. Been feeling kinda down since switching back to A, but who cares as long as it gets the job done in the long run, right? 
All sorts of self-cockblockage must go, and the belief that life must be hard by definition must go. There are many thoughts appearing in my mind - defeatist thoughts - but they might simply be a) a way of trying to prevent the program from working, or b) the side-effect of the healing/clearing that is going on underneath the hood.
There's possibly some GFS triggers I've got - with my time on B, I have noticed that I do not have the feelings of GSF surrounding them anymore (I mean, the triggers - I am not ashamed or afraid of the trigger acting up anymore) - but they're still there, and they are sex-related. And they're very much subconscious, so trying to tackle them through conscious input might have proven impossible/very difficult. So all the more power to Indigo Mind Labs for the powerful healing in DMSI! It is not pleasant, but worth it.
I might also be using the fear of the triggers acting up as a way of self-sabotaging the progress I've been making on DMSI. They make a pretty good excuse, no doubt. Hopefully, this shall either be healed/cleared or tired out through the ASS/ART.
The reality bend on A is currently much slower than on B (or at least it appears to be so! I am unable to judge with 100% certainty if it is so), and the results are more subtle, but they're still there as far as I can tell.
Been managing to smoke much less lately, and am in the process of quitting smoking altogether. When I don't smoke for 10hr+, I do not necessarily feel any kind of strong compulsion to smoke, I just get depressed. Same goes with limiting food intake in order to lose weight (which has been progressing nicely, as the energetic requirments of DMSI are quite high). Gotta start limiting caffeine, too, I think. Cardiovascular health and all that jazz.
Also I have been sleeping much more lately, and sometimes nap during the day.
Nicotine derails the DMSI state-shift for AT LEAST 15 minutes after smoking a cigarette, as far as I can tell through physical sensations. It's probably longer than that, as nicotine stays in the nervous system for about 8hrs IIRC, but DMSI's state-shift is strong and seems to get back on track swiftly.
Word of advice - avoid marihuana when using DMSI, especially ver. A. I took a couple of hits from a neighbor recently, and it was strong stuff (might have had something added "for flavor" too) - and, well, it broke through the shielding. AND IT WAS MOST UNPLEASANT. And the state lasted for about 4 hours - I had to sleep it off.
All sorts of self-cockblockage must go, and the belief that life must be hard by definition must go. There are many thoughts appearing in my mind - defeatist thoughts - but they might simply be a) a way of trying to prevent the program from working, or b) the side-effect of the healing/clearing that is going on underneath the hood.
There's possibly some GFS triggers I've got - with my time on B, I have noticed that I do not have the feelings of GSF surrounding them anymore (I mean, the triggers - I am not ashamed or afraid of the trigger acting up anymore) - but they're still there, and they are sex-related. And they're very much subconscious, so trying to tackle them through conscious input might have proven impossible/very difficult. So all the more power to Indigo Mind Labs for the powerful healing in DMSI! It is not pleasant, but worth it.
I might also be using the fear of the triggers acting up as a way of self-sabotaging the progress I've been making on DMSI. They make a pretty good excuse, no doubt. Hopefully, this shall either be healed/cleared or tired out through the ASS/ART.
The reality bend on A is currently much slower than on B (or at least it appears to be so! I am unable to judge with 100% certainty if it is so), and the results are more subtle, but they're still there as far as I can tell.
Been managing to smoke much less lately, and am in the process of quitting smoking altogether. When I don't smoke for 10hr+, I do not necessarily feel any kind of strong compulsion to smoke, I just get depressed. Same goes with limiting food intake in order to lose weight (which has been progressing nicely, as the energetic requirments of DMSI are quite high). Gotta start limiting caffeine, too, I think. Cardiovascular health and all that jazz.
Also I have been sleeping much more lately, and sometimes nap during the day.
Nicotine derails the DMSI state-shift for AT LEAST 15 minutes after smoking a cigarette, as far as I can tell through physical sensations. It's probably longer than that, as nicotine stays in the nervous system for about 8hrs IIRC, but DMSI's state-shift is strong and seems to get back on track swiftly.
Word of advice - avoid marihuana when using DMSI, especially ver. A. I took a couple of hits from a neighbor recently, and it was strong stuff (might have had something added "for flavor" too) - and, well, it broke through the shielding. AND IT WAS MOST UNPLEASANT. And the state lasted for about 4 hours - I had to sleep it off.
