04-23-2017, 12:37 PM
Rant incoming.
I hate retail. I hate poor management. I bust my ass at the store I work for because I'm good with the manager there. But recently he left and a new one came in. This new guy has been taking advantage of me. All the crap workers slack off and I get slammed with the workload and pick it up because I'm a responsible person. I know he's not doing it deliberately to mess with me, but it's poor management because he's burning me out. I hate being the go to guy because everyone starts thinking you're invincible and you can tackle anything instead of being a goddamn human being with limits. Yesterday was my breaking point. I came in at 4:45 and immediately my manager tells me he needs me to stay till 10 when I originally get out at 8:45. No big deal right? Yeah except yesterday was my birthday and I had plans with some friends after. Why the hell did I stay? I don't know, I'm not one to kick up a fuss over stuff like birthdays. There's probably still a lot of low self worth I carry because I'm constantly putting down the importance of myself. We live in a narcissistic society at times and I have a tendency to swing to the opposite extreme because I'm uncomfortable with being like that. I should have just fucking said no. But a voice in the back of my head said "it's just your birthday, grow up, start being more of an adult and make sacrifices you immature child".
I think what really pissed me off about all this is the fact that all the stuff you're told growing up is a lie. The jerks of the world get ahead, the slackers leave the workload for everyone else, and the reliable trusting people get fucked.
But an opportunity presented itself for me along the lines of music production. Gonna see where it goes. More of a office work type of thing in a guys small home studio, but I'm grateful for any opportunity that can push me in the right direction. If this doesn't pan out, I'll just move onto the next thing. But nothing ventured, nothing gained, even if things don't turn out like how I anticipated. People keep telling me this music business is hard, but from what I've seen it's all about who you know. And if that's all there is to it then all I have to do is keep using these subliminals and manifest opportunities into my life and just go for them.
I hate retail. I hate poor management. I bust my ass at the store I work for because I'm good with the manager there. But recently he left and a new one came in. This new guy has been taking advantage of me. All the crap workers slack off and I get slammed with the workload and pick it up because I'm a responsible person. I know he's not doing it deliberately to mess with me, but it's poor management because he's burning me out. I hate being the go to guy because everyone starts thinking you're invincible and you can tackle anything instead of being a goddamn human being with limits. Yesterday was my breaking point. I came in at 4:45 and immediately my manager tells me he needs me to stay till 10 when I originally get out at 8:45. No big deal right? Yeah except yesterday was my birthday and I had plans with some friends after. Why the hell did I stay? I don't know, I'm not one to kick up a fuss over stuff like birthdays. There's probably still a lot of low self worth I carry because I'm constantly putting down the importance of myself. We live in a narcissistic society at times and I have a tendency to swing to the opposite extreme because I'm uncomfortable with being like that. I should have just fucking said no. But a voice in the back of my head said "it's just your birthday, grow up, start being more of an adult and make sacrifices you immature child".
I think what really pissed me off about all this is the fact that all the stuff you're told growing up is a lie. The jerks of the world get ahead, the slackers leave the workload for everyone else, and the reliable trusting people get fucked.
But an opportunity presented itself for me along the lines of music production. Gonna see where it goes. More of a office work type of thing in a guys small home studio, but I'm grateful for any opportunity that can push me in the right direction. If this doesn't pan out, I'll just move onto the next thing. But nothing ventured, nothing gained, even if things don't turn out like how I anticipated. People keep telling me this music business is hard, but from what I've seen it's all about who you know. And if that's all there is to it then all I have to do is keep using these subliminals and manifest opportunities into my life and just go for them.
