Trip.1e Bag It - Wrapping Up with my Aura Jimmy Hat - DMSI V3.1

[RTBoss]

I'm sure we all have a "darkside," but to say I'm as normal as a "picket fence" is laughable. My own wife is the epitome of a good girl. Her "darkest" interests are war movies, romance novels that take place in 15-17th century England/Scotland. She doesn't drink to excess, and has never done drugs. She's never cheated, and as far as I know, even had thoughts. I've never caught her in a lie, nor has she ever hidden anything from me. And that's just one example. Then there's my dad and my brother - the Dual Princes of Morality. Anyway, I could go on w/ example after example.

No, I never watched Two & a Half Men. I didn't like it, for whatever reason.

My wife not making sex a big cornerstone of life may be a red flag, but I'm not leaving her for it. She's been through some shit - kidnapped by a man who was going to rape and kill her, then "rescued" by her boyfriend who then beat her, and force-***** her whenever he wanted. Then she lost her dad in a hunting accident. Yeah, if she has some trauma in that area, I'll leave her be.

I'm glad you're ***** up, though, Sarge. It definitely makes me feel better - haha. You have to understand, it's not like everyone just goes around airing their dirty laundry. It's the opposite, everybody goes out wearing their "Face." So as far as "getting over myself," it's not like there are a ton of examples of ***** up people out there, unless you count porn stars and the assholes killing people that end up on the evening news. My "best friend" (I've talked about him in my journals before) is a ****-up, and ***** up, and he does ***** up things. I'm pretty sure I could entrust these things I'm talking about with him, except...OH YEAH, I don't trust him. So really, I guess you could say I'm the Black Sheep of my immediate world. The people I interact with on a regular basis, in person, I'm it.

You say my SIL fantasies are tame, well...maybe that's why a lot of ppl on these forums are into the story. I dunno, it's kinda funny that no one has said, "Man, really? Your sister-in-law? That's just ***** up!"

My brother-in-law doesn't get girls. He got my sister-in-law. Big difference. This guy couldn't get a girl if she was spit-out chewing gum and he was a shoe that stepped on it. Seriously. She was his first everything. First date, first kiss, first lay, and he had to beg her about 10 times to go out with him.

I don't live as if I'm going to die tomorrow. People like that...die tomorrow. I just live my life as I want to, and do the best I can, and try to accept that as being good enough. I'm always trying to be a better version of myself, but sometimes I become a somewhat worse version, to get to the better, for a time.

Thanks for your input, though.

I sense I struck a nerve, which was not my intention. But if you're not f*cked up, you're normal (i.e. "white picket fence") so you're one or the other my friend.

No, you're reading to much into it. Lovely thing about the written word, at times it doesn't convey tone all that well if you aren't careful.

I don't think it's that black and white, though, dude. F*cked up or normal. There's a lot of gray area. More than 50 shades of it.