04-22-2017, 06:11 AM
Day 51
Not a boring dream with DMSI. Or dreams.
Three of them to be exact. First one was me playing with my niece. She's in Primary School. She was playfully hugging me. All I could think of is "don't look like a pedophile" o.O Second one was me in some doctor office, where he would take a look at my feet. All I could think of was "I hope they don't stink" O.o
Third one though... Just like yesterday for the first time in a looong time I dreamed about my sweetheart, tonight for the first time in a looong time I dreamed about my ex. I stumbled on her by chance, there was some commotion in my flat, people coming and leaving and I found her just outside the door. She started to run away down the staircase and I pursued her. I was angry and wanted to beat the s**t out of her, quite a scary thought now. Anyhow I got her into a corner where there was big table between us, so I couldn't easily catch her. I screamed "What do you want from me?!" and she would just smirk and laugh at my face.
Yeah, I got rid of all my insecurities about her... NOT.
It's funny how sometimes I think I dealt with all those issues and yet they come back, even when nothing is triggering them. Oh well, still a long way to go
Not a boring dream with DMSI. Or dreams.
Three of them to be exact. First one was me playing with my niece. She's in Primary School. She was playfully hugging me. All I could think of is "don't look like a pedophile" o.O Second one was me in some doctor office, where he would take a look at my feet. All I could think of was "I hope they don't stink" O.o
Third one though... Just like yesterday for the first time in a looong time I dreamed about my sweetheart, tonight for the first time in a looong time I dreamed about my ex. I stumbled on her by chance, there was some commotion in my flat, people coming and leaving and I found her just outside the door. She started to run away down the staircase and I pursued her. I was angry and wanted to beat the s**t out of her, quite a scary thought now. Anyhow I got her into a corner where there was big table between us, so I couldn't easily catch her. I screamed "What do you want from me?!" and she would just smirk and laugh at my face.
Yeah, I got rid of all my insecurities about her... NOT.
It's funny how sometimes I think I dealt with all those issues and yet they come back, even when nothing is triggering them. Oh well, still a long way to go
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
