04-22-2017, 05:55 AM
I've been slipping into my habit of going into that false sense of peace. I've been telling myself for weeks now that I have this control over my emotions, but it was just me avoiding them again. Not gonna drag out this post because I've been over this in the past. But basically I need to stop judging what I feel and just accept it and let it go. Somewhere along the way I've developed the habit of pushing away uncomfortable things and convincing myself it was emotional control instead of active suppression.
I think if I'm still afraid of slipping back into depression and anxiety then that means on some level I still have those feelings within me. That means it's better to clear it out fully than just continually trying to assert that it no longer effects me. It's like a dormant virus almost, I feel it lingering there. There's a lot to the mind I still don't get, but I at least know the most important thing is to pull out the roots of the weeds.
I think if I'm still afraid of slipping back into depression and anxiety then that means on some level I still have those feelings within me. That means it's better to clear it out fully than just continually trying to assert that it no longer effects me. It's like a dormant virus almost, I feel it lingering there. There's a lot to the mind I still don't get, but I at least know the most important thing is to pull out the roots of the weeds.
