A Sexy Alex, stage 2: DMSI Journal (now 3.3.2!)

[apollolux]

One more thing to note. There is a hand exercise I do every so often to test not so much ambidextrousness but the addition of easier left hand/arm functionality to conscious and reflexive actions and behavior. It's basically waving my hand as smoothly as possible like a vertical snake slither or something. Normally, doing it with my left hand results in disjointed, jerky motion and quick onset of fatigue in my forearm and wrist due to the relatively unfamiliar effort.

The first time I ever truly got drunk, I was on my way home and had the idea to look in the mirror next to my building's elevator and perform the hand wave exercise. THE LEFT HAND WAS SMOOTH AND FELT EFFORTLESS. I actually cried when I saw it because to me that signified that it was pretty much all psychological and the only true reason I "couldn't do it" before was because I was inhibiting myself; the consumption of alcohol removed the mental inhibitions and I allowed myself to use my left hand as if it was second nature.

Five minutes before writing this I performed the hand wave exercise because I had a curious feeling. There is now almost no effort needed to perform the wave and it's currently very nearly as smooth as with my right hand. I have not drunk alcohol tonight, so the only real difference I can think of attributing it to is listening to subs and accepting any or all positive messaging transmitted regarding releasing inhibitions.