Day 3, B
Took my kid to holiday stuff yesterday at the movies. Egg hunt, saw a human in a bunny costume, and the movie Hop. Lots of mom's with their kids, not many dads. A couple hotties, one whose daughter my son ran up to and hug-raped. She was already shy, and he just wrapped her up, lol. Well, her mom was smokin' hot. No wedding ring. Mom was just as shy as her daughter. I told my son he needed to ask for a hug. I almost said, "See, like this." and then almost asked the mom for a hug. Resisted that.
Got seats at the movie, then she sat across the aisle. SDS the whole movie. Got a good foot display, but that was about it.
The "happy" feeling I got yesterday was sort-of fleeting. I also realized it occurred just after I had spilled hot coffee all over my hand and I didn't get mad. I had a legit calm, no-anger reaction, and it's like the happiness was my subconscious rejoicing that I had a big "win." I can react without anger after all.
Today, at a gathering place people go on Sundays sometimes, women were fanning themselves even though it wasn't hot. I have a feeling it was because of me and ye 'ole aura.
I know my wife's pregnant, and uncomfortable, but damn - it's been over a month with no sex. I'd always heard pregnant women were non-stop horny. Not my wife, apparently. Today I dropped hints all day - little comments - no takers. Just "it hurts and it's hairy." LOL. I'm sure I could get it if I asked directly or pushed hard for it, but that's not really the point of DMSI, is it? I feel like 2.2 was the only version she's really initiated - but I'd have to comb through my journals to find out for sure.
I will say this - the past few days, my natural, fun-loving, happy-go-lucky sense of humor seems to have returned. I'm joking in a natural, non-forced way just because I'm feeling...GOOD! It's a nice change. I'd really like it to stay. When I was in my early 20's, if you called my mobile, there was never a standard message. It was always some goofy recording where I was in-character or did some goofy voice, just b/c I liked to fuck around.
Regarding the externals, if I was single, I'd be strikin' out so far. But, if I was single, perhaps the program would be working differently for me. I'd be going out more, and to different environments (like sexually-charged bars and clubs). I'd be more-than-meeting them halfway. I'm getting clear internal changes, seeing clear external effects (hair flips, glances/staring, wrist/foot/ass/boob displays) - just nothing mind-blowing (no major kino, sexual suggestiveness, sexual invitations), and no manifestations (that I know of).
The urge to drink isn't as bad, still eating pretty poorly, not exercising as much as I'd like, and bouts of exhaustion here & there. It's still early on the B-side. I think something healing-related pushed me to B, and I just couldn't hang, but I'll be going to back to it after two weeks. We'll see how things are then.
Took my kid to holiday stuff yesterday at the movies. Egg hunt, saw a human in a bunny costume, and the movie Hop. Lots of mom's with their kids, not many dads. A couple hotties, one whose daughter my son ran up to and hug-raped. She was already shy, and he just wrapped her up, lol. Well, her mom was smokin' hot. No wedding ring. Mom was just as shy as her daughter. I told my son he needed to ask for a hug. I almost said, "See, like this." and then almost asked the mom for a hug. Resisted that.
Got seats at the movie, then she sat across the aisle. SDS the whole movie. Got a good foot display, but that was about it.
The "happy" feeling I got yesterday was sort-of fleeting. I also realized it occurred just after I had spilled hot coffee all over my hand and I didn't get mad. I had a legit calm, no-anger reaction, and it's like the happiness was my subconscious rejoicing that I had a big "win." I can react without anger after all.
Today, at a gathering place people go on Sundays sometimes, women were fanning themselves even though it wasn't hot. I have a feeling it was because of me and ye 'ole aura.
I know my wife's pregnant, and uncomfortable, but damn - it's been over a month with no sex. I'd always heard pregnant women were non-stop horny. Not my wife, apparently. Today I dropped hints all day - little comments - no takers. Just "it hurts and it's hairy." LOL. I'm sure I could get it if I asked directly or pushed hard for it, but that's not really the point of DMSI, is it? I feel like 2.2 was the only version she's really initiated - but I'd have to comb through my journals to find out for sure.
I will say this - the past few days, my natural, fun-loving, happy-go-lucky sense of humor seems to have returned. I'm joking in a natural, non-forced way just because I'm feeling...GOOD! It's a nice change. I'd really like it to stay. When I was in my early 20's, if you called my mobile, there was never a standard message. It was always some goofy recording where I was in-character or did some goofy voice, just b/c I liked to fuck around.
Regarding the externals, if I was single, I'd be strikin' out so far. But, if I was single, perhaps the program would be working differently for me. I'd be going out more, and to different environments (like sexually-charged bars and clubs). I'd be more-than-meeting them halfway. I'm getting clear internal changes, seeing clear external effects (hair flips, glances/staring, wrist/foot/ass/boob displays) - just nothing mind-blowing (no major kino, sexual suggestiveness, sexual invitations), and no manifestations (that I know of).
The urge to drink isn't as bad, still eating pretty poorly, not exercising as much as I'd like, and bouts of exhaustion here & there. It's still early on the B-side. I think something healing-related pushed me to B, and I just couldn't hang, but I'll be going to back to it after two weeks. We'll see how things are then.
