So last two days I might have listened to 8 hours of DMSI 3.1 a ACCIDENTLY.
The first night I know for sure i listened to 8 loops because my alarm didn't go off.
Second night I unplugged my speakers after 2 loops when alarm went on. But I didn't realize that
audio still plays from my computer's speakers. The volume was microspocially low and I didn't notice it until the morning and I shut it off. That was about 10 hours into listening to it.
However I'm not sure If I even was able to hear it because it was so low. I didn't feel fucked up or strange today unlike the day before.
So I think today I wasn't actually listening to it for 8 hours.
But the day before I felt really wierd at work.
I wasn't facing major resistance but I could feel my mind was thinking too much subconsiously about what to do .
It felt awkward but I didn't feel stress or anxiety at work like in the past when facing resistance.
anyways TODAY AT WORK. Day 40
Felt kinda nervous or uneasy about seeing that chick that I really like (vegan brunette 3) the one who I talked to for 30-45 minutes at the oscars night party and who I kissed on the cheek several times and she likes me back even though she's technically seeing someone.
She likes me for sure. I know 100 percent. Based on the reactions I got from her on FB and how awesome and confident I was at the oscars night.
Also today first thing that happened when I saw her was she said how are you, and we were kind of walking past eachother. I put my hand out for a hand clap, and i ended up grabbing her hand and squeezing it really tight for a split second while continuing to walk away.
It was super perfect, I didn't have to say a word and I communicated to her that yes I'm still interested, and yes I can be sexual and forward without liquor in my system.
It's crazy how something as simple as holding and squeezing someones hand can communicate so much without any words.
I focused on my job all day and didn't attempt to talk to her or anything.
One time she came near me and I looked at her and she smiled/giggled and walked away (because she had work to do)
then she walked past me shortly after and hit me in the butt/back with a cloth/towel as she was walking by.
It was her way of saying "Heyyy I'm interested too"
or at least a way of showing her she cares about me.
She's shy as fuck and probably more now that she likes me for real. So I see those subtle things like that as her way of reaching out.
FUNNY STORY.
I heard from a male coworker that there is a rumor going around that me and Brunette 3 Vegan made out at the oscar nights.
He heard it from one of the girls that work there.
ITS HILARIOUS because we didn't even make out. I just kissed on cheek and hugged/squeezed her really tight, we also spoke for 30-45 minutes.
I guess people were watching and taking notes. Word got around and I guess just like the game "telephone" things got unaccurate by the time that chick who told my male coworker found out. LMAO
It's a good rumor imo. Only makes me look mores desirable by other women I'd imagine.
Although I'm not really interested in other women atm. I really like Vegan Brunette 3. I want to date her. She's an amazing women with great values and personality.
She's an animal lover like me and not a slut. My male coworker told me he was hitting on her at the party and she wasn't having any of it.
That being said, I did talk to some other beautiful women at my work today and I was sniping her/macking on her.
So I don't have ONEITIS. But I do genuinly like this women.
I don't feel the same neediness or desperation or anxiety I normally do around women that I really like.
DMSI has made me really cool and calm in the moment.
I'm going to ask her out to the comedy club with me this sunday.
I'm only going to ask her out if it comes out natural. I won't go out of my way to do it and I won't go out of my way to talk to her.
I decided to stop giving a fuck so much and just go with the flow.
I noticed LESS IS MORE. The more I try to talk to mack on the waitresses the less effectivei t is. It just comes across as needy.,
One blonde chick at my work who I haven't talked to in two weeks she OPENED me for once. Before I could barely get her to talk if I asked the questions.
Also I noticed my aura is affecting women at work now more. I can see it in there eyes when they walk by. (not all the chicks but some of them)
I also had one waitress tell me "you're the best"
Also all the guys at my work are hella intimidated by me now in subtle ways. Like if they ask me to do something (part of my job) they act like very timid and apologetic for making me do it.
The first night I know for sure i listened to 8 loops because my alarm didn't go off.
Second night I unplugged my speakers after 2 loops when alarm went on. But I didn't realize that
audio still plays from my computer's speakers. The volume was microspocially low and I didn't notice it until the morning and I shut it off. That was about 10 hours into listening to it.
However I'm not sure If I even was able to hear it because it was so low. I didn't feel fucked up or strange today unlike the day before.
So I think today I wasn't actually listening to it for 8 hours.
But the day before I felt really wierd at work.
I wasn't facing major resistance but I could feel my mind was thinking too much subconsiously about what to do .
It felt awkward but I didn't feel stress or anxiety at work like in the past when facing resistance.
anyways TODAY AT WORK. Day 40
Felt kinda nervous or uneasy about seeing that chick that I really like (vegan brunette 3) the one who I talked to for 30-45 minutes at the oscars night party and who I kissed on the cheek several times and she likes me back even though she's technically seeing someone.
She likes me for sure. I know 100 percent. Based on the reactions I got from her on FB and how awesome and confident I was at the oscars night.
Also today first thing that happened when I saw her was she said how are you, and we were kind of walking past eachother. I put my hand out for a hand clap, and i ended up grabbing her hand and squeezing it really tight for a split second while continuing to walk away.
It was super perfect, I didn't have to say a word and I communicated to her that yes I'm still interested, and yes I can be sexual and forward without liquor in my system.
It's crazy how something as simple as holding and squeezing someones hand can communicate so much without any words.
I focused on my job all day and didn't attempt to talk to her or anything.
One time she came near me and I looked at her and she smiled/giggled and walked away (because she had work to do)
then she walked past me shortly after and hit me in the butt/back with a cloth/towel as she was walking by.
It was her way of saying "Heyyy I'm interested too"
or at least a way of showing her she cares about me.
She's shy as fuck and probably more now that she likes me for real. So I see those subtle things like that as her way of reaching out.
FUNNY STORY.
I heard from a male coworker that there is a rumor going around that me and Brunette 3 Vegan made out at the oscar nights.
He heard it from one of the girls that work there.
ITS HILARIOUS because we didn't even make out. I just kissed on cheek and hugged/squeezed her really tight, we also spoke for 30-45 minutes.
I guess people were watching and taking notes. Word got around and I guess just like the game "telephone" things got unaccurate by the time that chick who told my male coworker found out. LMAO
It's a good rumor imo. Only makes me look mores desirable by other women I'd imagine.
Although I'm not really interested in other women atm. I really like Vegan Brunette 3. I want to date her. She's an amazing women with great values and personality.
She's an animal lover like me and not a slut. My male coworker told me he was hitting on her at the party and she wasn't having any of it.
That being said, I did talk to some other beautiful women at my work today and I was sniping her/macking on her.
So I don't have ONEITIS. But I do genuinly like this women.
I don't feel the same neediness or desperation or anxiety I normally do around women that I really like.
DMSI has made me really cool and calm in the moment.
I'm going to ask her out to the comedy club with me this sunday.
I'm only going to ask her out if it comes out natural. I won't go out of my way to do it and I won't go out of my way to talk to her.
I decided to stop giving a fuck so much and just go with the flow.
I noticed LESS IS MORE. The more I try to talk to mack on the waitresses the less effectivei t is. It just comes across as needy.,
One blonde chick at my work who I haven't talked to in two weeks she OPENED me for once. Before I could barely get her to talk if I asked the questions.
Also I noticed my aura is affecting women at work now more. I can see it in there eyes when they walk by. (not all the chicks but some of them)
I also had one waitress tell me "you're the best"
Also all the guys at my work are hella intimidated by me now in subtle ways. Like if they ask me to do something (part of my job) they act like very timid and apologetic for making me do it.
