12-27-2011, 12:46 AM
Well I've started hitting a stage of resistance I presume. I was out with some old friends and got to visit with one of their long term girlfriends for the first time in years. She also brought a gay friend along but I was having fun with everyone. At first I felt that there could be some social anxiety popup but it wasn't there. I just felt inferior to my friends because they all went to college to get degrees in science and physics and in a way I feel stupid around them. However today I was more relaxed and just felt comfortable with whatever things I did, whatever questions I asked, and whatever answers I gave. All in all it was a good time and I hope everyone was as comfortable as I was.
We later went to a local pub and we just played some darts for awhile. I actually ran into a couple of my buddies sisters who I've known from the past and in some way creeped out LOL but they did not seem that way anymore. In fact, with one of the girls I had sent her a picture which I thought was funny (6 or 7 years ago) but was actually somewhat disturbing to a 14 or 15 year old girl. She brought up that joke or whatever, and actually felt compelled to defend me and say that her brother (my friend) had told her that he told me to send her this picture (which he did) and I was somewhat impressed. I then totally forgot about her because I was messing with her friend whom I remember meeting and she looked like she was on drugs. From then on I felt like I should find out how she's doing in life. For one, her friend (my friends sister) had a boyfriend. She was obviously showing some signs of interest (and I had a huge crush on her several years ago) but I did not capitalize on the situation with straight up direct game. My excuse is 3 of their friends came back over to the table which I was at (all of them were girls) but I didn't think of anything of it. I did not introduce myself. Instead, I continued talking to my friend's sister's friend to find out what she was doing since all my buddies I came with her mingling around doing their own thing. She started getting defensive doing the girl thing and trying to manipulate me because she must have thought I was trying to sleep with her. I would, for the record. But I was just being lame and wasting time really because I just wasn't going to put all the cards on the table for my friend's sister when he's right behind me and all of her friends are around listening. Either way my friend's sister was checking me out when I left the table.. and later on in the night she came by closer to where we were at with some of her friends.. but other dudes were trying to hit on her.
Nothing happened with that. but it's nice to know She's interested.. maybe she's always been interested. She's a weird but adorable girl... who's a red head with huge tits. (I have been suggesting a program like this to Shannon several times over the past year.)
On a side note.. I was just randomly staring at women.. or gazing, whatever. But really with no intentions.. so maybe that's why none of them approached me. Or I am too hot and sexy for them. Obviously I've never been one to go straight up to a girl and talk to her.. I'm not like the mayor or a super pimp with ultra hypnotic moves. I'm just me. I am about 3 weeks into stage 5. I think I should expect girls to start approaching me by now... but hasn't really happened. We'll see.
And I guess if i really want things to happen.. I could sleep with anyone if I told them I want to sleep with them. I was really hitting it off with this one girl.. who is also a red head.. but was a little too chunky for me. I let it go because I didn't have enough beers to be comfortable with her sucking my ... dong. For a lack of a better term. Is that the right way to say it?
We later went to a local pub and we just played some darts for awhile. I actually ran into a couple of my buddies sisters who I've known from the past and in some way creeped out LOL but they did not seem that way anymore. In fact, with one of the girls I had sent her a picture which I thought was funny (6 or 7 years ago) but was actually somewhat disturbing to a 14 or 15 year old girl. She brought up that joke or whatever, and actually felt compelled to defend me and say that her brother (my friend) had told her that he told me to send her this picture (which he did) and I was somewhat impressed. I then totally forgot about her because I was messing with her friend whom I remember meeting and she looked like she was on drugs. From then on I felt like I should find out how she's doing in life. For one, her friend (my friends sister) had a boyfriend. She was obviously showing some signs of interest (and I had a huge crush on her several years ago) but I did not capitalize on the situation with straight up direct game. My excuse is 3 of their friends came back over to the table which I was at (all of them were girls) but I didn't think of anything of it. I did not introduce myself. Instead, I continued talking to my friend's sister's friend to find out what she was doing since all my buddies I came with her mingling around doing their own thing. She started getting defensive doing the girl thing and trying to manipulate me because she must have thought I was trying to sleep with her. I would, for the record. But I was just being lame and wasting time really because I just wasn't going to put all the cards on the table for my friend's sister when he's right behind me and all of her friends are around listening. Either way my friend's sister was checking me out when I left the table.. and later on in the night she came by closer to where we were at with some of her friends.. but other dudes were trying to hit on her.
Nothing happened with that. but it's nice to know She's interested.. maybe she's always been interested. She's a weird but adorable girl... who's a red head with huge tits. (I have been suggesting a program like this to Shannon several times over the past year.)
On a side note.. I was just randomly staring at women.. or gazing, whatever. But really with no intentions.. so maybe that's why none of them approached me. Or I am too hot and sexy for them. Obviously I've never been one to go straight up to a girl and talk to her.. I'm not like the mayor or a super pimp with ultra hypnotic moves. I'm just me. I am about 3 weeks into stage 5. I think I should expect girls to start approaching me by now... but hasn't really happened. We'll see.
And I guess if i really want things to happen.. I could sleep with anyone if I told them I want to sleep with them. I was really hitting it off with this one girl.. who is also a red head.. but was a little too chunky for me. I let it go because I didn't have enough beers to be comfortable with her sucking my ... dong. For a lack of a better term. Is that the right way to say it?
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"If at first glance it may appear too hard, look again. Always look again." - Unknown
If you would like to get in touch with me, please send me an email.
