04-08-2017, 01:58 PM
(04-08-2017, 01:47 PM)eternity Wrote: To elaborate, I am coming to the conclusion that the insecurity I'm feeling is because of a disconnect between that which in not, and that which I used to be.
The missing link is identifying who I am right here right now. This is a revisit to the earlier days of 3.1 where I was feeling that I don't know who I am anymore.
I'm NOT a natural alpha. There's a lot I don't align with as far as being a natural alpha. I'm referring primarily to the ESTJ personality type, which I see from my perspective as that which I'm not.
I am also not a beta anymore, which is that which I am not ANYMORE. So who am I now? I'm not an alpha and I'm not a beta. So who the fuq am I? Well, consciously, I know I'm [eternity]. Subconsciously, I am at a loss, trying to figure out where I fit in, in this world.
It's a weird feeling.
You are you, E. At the end of the day, that's all that really matters. Not some model of what an Alpha or Beta is supposed to be. As long as you're happy with who you are, and you don't do things that conflict with your beliefs, that's all that matters.
And at the end of the day, I think that being comfortable in your own skin and with your beliefs, is the only Alpha you need to be.
Be your own leader, not someone else's follower...
