04-07-2017, 07:23 AM
Too much time on this forum really does my head in, so I stepped back for a couple of days.
Right now what I'm working on is my anxiety. I always knew I struggled with social anxiety, but never realized that I had regular generalized anxiety as well. That sense of impending doom that hovers over me isn't normal for people. So I'm taking steps to calming myself down and not getting ahead of myself. The funny thing about my anxiety is the more I tried to figure out where it was coming from and how to fix it, the more anxiety I caused myself. Obsessing over how to get the sub to work better, if I'll be alpha at the end of it, if I should be further along, etc. A lot of needless worrying that didn't resolve everything. Too much analyzing that went nowhere.
I'm back to basics. Whenever I find myself getting anxious I just take a step back, focus on my breathing, and calmly assess what it is I'm anxious about. My mind has a tendency to race and I never did anything to catch it and calm it down. Always too far into the future worrying about the what ifs. Instead of holding the mentality of things causing my anxiety I'm beginning to grasp more on an instinctual level how I cause my anxiety because of the thoughts I bombard myself with.
Right now what I'm working on is my anxiety. I always knew I struggled with social anxiety, but never realized that I had regular generalized anxiety as well. That sense of impending doom that hovers over me isn't normal for people. So I'm taking steps to calming myself down and not getting ahead of myself. The funny thing about my anxiety is the more I tried to figure out where it was coming from and how to fix it, the more anxiety I caused myself. Obsessing over how to get the sub to work better, if I'll be alpha at the end of it, if I should be further along, etc. A lot of needless worrying that didn't resolve everything. Too much analyzing that went nowhere.
I'm back to basics. Whenever I find myself getting anxious I just take a step back, focus on my breathing, and calmly assess what it is I'm anxious about. My mind has a tendency to race and I never did anything to catch it and calm it down. Always too far into the future worrying about the what ifs. Instead of holding the mentality of things causing my anxiety I'm beginning to grasp more on an instinctual level how I cause my anxiety because of the thoughts I bombard myself with.
