04-05-2017, 01:38 PM
Day 34
Not a boring day with DMSI, let me tell you that.
First of I went to my friend's to have some fun and do some man stuff. I was hoping his flatmate I'm into would be in there, but she wasn't. Not a big deal, it wasn't meant to be apparently. It's not like I wanted to make a move on her just yet, I just wanted to gauge her attitude towards me. I'll do this another time though
Also I met that female friend of mine. The one who was mistreating me and I cut her off because of that. In fact I invited her for a event and didn't expect she'd come, but she did. I wanted to show her I don't hate her or anything like that. I just will not allow anyone to mistreat me again. After the whole thing she asked me to hug her which I did while saying "You know I'm still mad at you, right?". Then she said I look great or something like that and conversation went into more general topics. She wanted to meet me up later today but I had plans already so we scheduled for the next week.
She is not into me my ass!
The sad thing is that beta me would go crazy over her. Current me however just doesn't see anything in her. I can do so much better than her. She's like completely asexual to me and she well knows this. That makes me pity her. There is voice in me saying that if there ever was a justice in this world I would give her a chance. But it's simply impossible for me with no attraction. I know nice guys would often say looks are not everything but those are important. Sure, perhaps not THE MOST important, but important nonetheless. And she's not even ugly girl, she's just... asexual. It's so hard to explain.
Not a boring day with DMSI, let me tell you that.
First of I went to my friend's to have some fun and do some man stuff. I was hoping his flatmate I'm into would be in there, but she wasn't. Not a big deal, it wasn't meant to be apparently. It's not like I wanted to make a move on her just yet, I just wanted to gauge her attitude towards me. I'll do this another time though
Also I met that female friend of mine. The one who was mistreating me and I cut her off because of that. In fact I invited her for a event and didn't expect she'd come, but she did. I wanted to show her I don't hate her or anything like that. I just will not allow anyone to mistreat me again. After the whole thing she asked me to hug her which I did while saying "You know I'm still mad at you, right?". Then she said I look great or something like that and conversation went into more general topics. She wanted to meet me up later today but I had plans already so we scheduled for the next week.
She is not into me my ass!
The sad thing is that beta me would go crazy over her. Current me however just doesn't see anything in her. I can do so much better than her. She's like completely asexual to me and she well knows this. That makes me pity her. There is voice in me saying that if there ever was a justice in this world I would give her a chance. But it's simply impossible for me with no attraction. I know nice guys would often say looks are not everything but those are important. Sure, perhaps not THE MOST important, but important nonetheless. And she's not even ugly girl, she's just... asexual. It's so hard to explain.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
