The Modern Libertine's diary

[Cortez]

This second run through of stage 6 is yielding some odd results. First of all, attracting and seducing women has been on auto-pilot and yet my desire for them has not really been there. It may sound crude, but honestly, I'd rather just knock one out of the park myself than have a girl come over lately. I don't get a tremendous amount of an ego boost from sleeping with a girl anymore, and though it is nice, I just haven't felt like messing around with women. I'm just seducing them for later I guess, for when I actually do feel like it. I was hanging with one of my friends yesterday and he had this girl with him he had been trying to sleep with. I had lunch with them and ran some errands while they went to the bar. I met up with them later at the bar because they kept blowing up my phone, asking me to join them. When I finally got there, they were both trashed and wanted to leave to "party". The girl kept asking me where we were gonna go and looking at my crotch. I was like "You two are going somewhere, I'm staying here. You wanted me to come here just to leave right away?" and so eventually they left to go "party" lol. I get the feeling this girl wanted both of us to do her at once. She was attractive enough, but not enough for me to be interested in, let alone double team, lmao and the worst part is that my friend would have wanted that go down too. He's ridiculous like that. I'll just leave those train wrecks to him. I just stayed at the bar, drank, and talked to the hot bartender for a while.

The above was just a random story to emphasize my point of the odd stuff that happens to me on a day to day basis. This whole "being desire less" thing puts women in heat. It's pretty funny, especially because this is true indifference and not feigned. I can imagine that it will only get more pronounced as I begin Alpha Male again. Fun times. Anyway I feel fantastic lately. I think I'm happier than I've ever been.