Mystic Pymp on DMSI 2.4→2.5→3.0.1A→3.1A/B→3.2A/B→3.3D→3.3.1D

[Mystic Pymp]

Your insight gave me some insight into one of my own relationships from about 10 years ago, some similarities. That was quite an eye opener to contemplate. Thanks for that.

Glad I could help. Even if it's a bit bittersweet.

I'm pretty sure it was bacon ballsTM!

Yeah...

Day 25

It is good. Not great though. Euphoria from yesterday is almost gone and replaced by mild anxiety but I feel so much lighter and unburdened than before it's crazy.

Today I had a chance to see if anything changes when I go out after last weekend. And it kinda did. For the first time I could feel aura around me (or at least I think I did). My colleagues were much kinder to me today and my Chinese teacher was keeping a lot of eye contact with me. I would love to see something happening in her direction, there are not many Asian people in my parts and I do like their kind of beauty. I'll see if I can come up with something in the future. Never even tried to pick up a teacher before (she's like 25-27). BTW I was way less shy and more active during the classes to catch some of her attention and I noticed it only later on. Auto-pilot maybe?

Writing that letter I was mentioning before seems more and more probable. To be honest I really want to write this letter but I don't know if I want her to receive it. The letter being lost in the mail would be perfect But frankly that would make little sense. My ex gives me target to honestly write all my feeling right now. I fear consequences that might follow. There will be many kind words in the letter (which are easy to give now that both anger and expectations are gone) and if I don't make it clear why and how much I don't want her in my life she'll try to come back without a doubt. This letter is my big chance for closure, to finally end this chapter in respectable manner. I don't want it to become a ticket for even more hurt.