03-27-2017, 08:36 AM
Days 23-25: March 24th-26th, 2017
Version: 3.1A
Format: Trickling Stream Hybrid FLAC
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Volume: 4 out of 15 clicks
Mood has been insane. Saturday, I was feeling really happy, upbeat, and hopeful, even tho I had a headache all day long. I even woke up with one when I hadn't had any drinks the night before. This is a first ever, as far as I remember. Sunday, I was depressed, feeling like a failure, and envious of my friends' successes. Today I feel like punching people. At the gym, I almost snapped at a random person that I haven't seen there before, just because he was being slow and taking lots of rest between sets. I didn't even need the bench and the weights he was using... Glad I avoided that and had it in control. Can't wait to go to boxing so I can let the beast out.
Dreams have been involving lots of unknown people. I mean from time to time, I'd dream of a random person, but I'd associate it with someone I know in real life, or someone from this forum
I would have the rare dream involving a total stranger, but it's becoming pretty common lately. I wonder if this thing is helping me heal past lives... Dreamed of enjoying an orange and singing last night. Apparently they both represent happiness. I'm far from it today tho 
I also think I dreamed of a voice telling me to stick to the masked tracks for the time being. It's very vague, but I will comply. Maybe at 7/15 clicks.
I think my sweat smells slightly different, as other people have mentioned it, but I'm not quite sure about that. What I'm sure of is that it's way more pronounced. Given, I haven't been using deodorants for a while, since my skin decided that it wanted to have a rash against them, but I've started smelling it for the last 2 days. And it's stinky. Girlfriend likes it tho. And she mentioned oral sex last night, when she previously has said that she doesn't like giving one.
I realized that my mom has been in control of my dad, even tho she's almost 10 years younger and hasn't gone thru the stress of bringing money home at all. She probably doesn't even realize of this fact herself. Don't get me wrong, she's an amazing woman, I'm happy and grateful of the way she has taken care of me, and I love her. I'm simply mentioning that I'm realizing this only now, and that's the example of masculinity I've grown up to.
I don't understand what I fear yet. I don't understand what all this clearing is about. Sure, the above paragraph could be part of it, but can't be the whole thing. But then again, I don't understand how gravity works. I can look that up, but who cares. It works!
Version: 3.1A
Format: Trickling Stream Hybrid FLAC
Player: Phone thru Headphones
Volume: 4 out of 15 clicks
Mood has been insane. Saturday, I was feeling really happy, upbeat, and hopeful, even tho I had a headache all day long. I even woke up with one when I hadn't had any drinks the night before. This is a first ever, as far as I remember. Sunday, I was depressed, feeling like a failure, and envious of my friends' successes. Today I feel like punching people. At the gym, I almost snapped at a random person that I haven't seen there before, just because he was being slow and taking lots of rest between sets. I didn't even need the bench and the weights he was using... Glad I avoided that and had it in control. Can't wait to go to boxing so I can let the beast out.
Dreams have been involving lots of unknown people. I mean from time to time, I'd dream of a random person, but I'd associate it with someone I know in real life, or someone from this forum
I would have the rare dream involving a total stranger, but it's becoming pretty common lately. I wonder if this thing is helping me heal past lives... Dreamed of enjoying an orange and singing last night. Apparently they both represent happiness. I'm far from it today tho I also think I dreamed of a voice telling me to stick to the masked tracks for the time being. It's very vague, but I will comply. Maybe at 7/15 clicks.I think my sweat smells slightly different, as other people have mentioned it, but I'm not quite sure about that. What I'm sure of is that it's way more pronounced. Given, I haven't been using deodorants for a while, since my skin decided that it wanted to have a rash against them, but I've started smelling it for the last 2 days. And it's stinky. Girlfriend likes it tho. And she mentioned oral sex last night, when she previously has said that she doesn't like giving one.
I realized that my mom has been in control of my dad, even tho she's almost 10 years younger and hasn't gone thru the stress of bringing money home at all. She probably doesn't even realize of this fact herself. Don't get me wrong, she's an amazing woman, I'm happy and grateful of the way she has taken care of me, and I love her. I'm simply mentioning that I'm realizing this only now, and that's the example of masculinity I've grown up to.
I don't understand what I fear yet. I don't understand what all this clearing is about. Sure, the above paragraph could be part of it, but can't be the whole thing. But then again, I don't understand how gravity works. I can look that up, but who cares. It works!
INFJ
