Blink DMSI 3.1 Journal

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Days 20-22: March 21st-23rd, 2017
Version: 3.1A
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• Mood has been very up and down. Rage, depression, peaceful on repeat.
  
• Motivation for gym was really down for the past two weeks. This hasn't ever happen since I started working out years ago. I was dragging myself to there. For the last couple of days, it's back to normal.
  
• On that note, overall motivation in life was down. I was feeling lazy at work and not doing anything other than checking the forum. It's back up for the past two days and I've been very productive and hopeful.
  
• Cold showers have taken a new level of enjoyment. I was avoiding them for a while, but they're amazing!
  
• Hung out with girlfriend a couple of days ago. Her disrespectful behavior continued. I was starting to feel butt-hurt and intolerant and I was gonna call her out on it and probably ruin the day for the both of us, but something snapped. A full blown IDGAF attitude. And I slipped into a seductive mode. I guess we're on a full time job here and have to seduce our girlfriends at all times and not take them for granted. Makes sense. But why now? If DMSI is manifesting some sort of a personality in her to make me good at seduction, I'll take it! Could this be the indirect work of SATT?
  
• I think I felt the LM this morning. When I got to the train station in rush hour, the train was just arriving and I found a seat! Usually it's a can of sardines in there, with not even space left to stand and I would need to wait for 2-3 trains to find a space to be one of the sardines. For those who've been to the subway in Toronto, I'm talking about the Yonge line during rush hour.
  
• Boxing in the morning was amazing. I'm advancing at it pretty well. And the coach isn't silent about it Endurance was really good and I was hooking the bag real hard real fast during our burnout at the end of the class. I saw the cute Asian pretty much staring at me go at it from the corner of my eye. I guess she caught herself and stopped doing it during the subsequent rounds. But her butt was pointing at me during her sets. I mean she could have been standing anywhere around the bag, as she was the only one on it. So I'll take that as butt pointing.
  
• Also, past day 21!! No more turbulence, not that I've felt much of it.
  
• Some of my dreams are full blown weird and sexual... I'd rather not talk about them here Funnily enough tho, something happens during the day and that's how I remember them. I'm also remembering dreams that I've had days or even weeks ago, when it felt like I wasn't dreaming at all.
  
• Oh! I halved my coffee intake.