Trip.1e Bag It - Wrapping Up with my Aura Jimmy Hat - DMSI V3.1

[chaosvrgn]

So... if you have an argument that ends your relationship, there'll be no reason to keep DMSI from getting you sex from other women. Could it be a crafty way it's working for you?

I mean you've stated that you won't ruin your relationship by having sex with another woman right? What if DMSI knows this and is manifesting these situations to ruin your relationship anyways?

I know it's twilight zone shit but it seems possible. At least, from my pov.

I thought about it for a hot second, as the trail of breadcrumbs leading to the fight was completely my fault, with some other things having had to fall into place just perfect for the conflict to occur in the first place. But, it also could have happened this way otherwise.

I also, consciously, can't conceive of why my subconscious would lay plans to manifest a conflict, say something like I said to "end" the relationship, when there are so many other avenues to achieve the goal with a path-of-least/lessor-resistance. Trust me, the fallout from this would have been path-of-most-resistance.

Well, you also have to remember that this program is making massive changes to your internal landscape. I've been clashing with a lot of old friends lately too, and I found it a bit confusing at first. I feel like I'm not really treating them any differently than I normally would, other than the fact that SOMETHING just seems a little bit off. Of course, the reality bending and the naturalizer, et. al. is designed to keep you from realizing the massive changes so you won't resist it.

Then, I began to really dwell on the situation... here's how I see it. I fell in love with San Diego when I moved there. I love the place. It's amazing and I really found myself and who I was when I lived there. I love the people. I love the sights. I love the diversity between the neighborhoods -- from the laid back, yet edgy chillness of North Park to the frantic, hyper-sexuality of the Gaslamps District.

However, NONE of my friends -- both personal and work buddies -- live in San Diego anymore. If I went back, though the landscape is the same, the energy, the essence and the VIBE would be totally different.

The San Diego I loved has gone. Because it wasn't just the place. It's also the people and the memories -- the inner landscape, that made it MY San Diego.

DMSI is drastically changing who you are, even if you don't consciously realize it yet. And it's possible that your wife is picking up on that and it's causing friction. And not to "rub anything in your face," but Shannon warned you that this could happen, and you told him that you had it under control. And Shannon warned again that you would be in danger by running the later versions. I haven't posted a journal in a few days (super busy), but I've had some DRASTIC internal results and some cool external ones and at one point I began to think about you (and everyone else in a relationship), wondering how in the world they would fare if they kept going.

Be careful, man.