03-22-2017, 01:44 AM
Slightly less irritated with my team today. I feel like I am establishing more control and care a lot less if they like me now. I've spoiled them by being far too accommodating (my fault) and now they are taking the piss. They've had a couple of days of tough love. Feels good for my self respect and my management skills. Being nice as a manager doesn't really work and I am finding my 'edge'.
I do feel that this is linked in to my overall 'masculinity' and social respect. I have always been a lone wolf previously, so this is new territory for me. I want to be ultra confident, to command a room full of people and be able to lead and motivate them.
It's the motivating people thing that I haven't connected with yet. When I run classes, people seem to enjoy them, I say the right things but I don't quite feel that I have connected fully with them yet. Same with my PTs. This could just be a little inner social insecurity.
Less obsessing about my celeb client recently. I think that we just get on really well and I am confusing that with a desire for lust/intimacy. She's pretty, but not really my type physically. I doubt that my subconscious would choose her as a DMSI sniper target.
The life guard/receptionist on the other hand.... I'm finding her more attractive if anything. She's in a relationship though so that presumably negates her as a valid target for the aura/sniper?
Although there are lots of attractive women in the gym, there aren't many that I would have my head turned by. This is good news; I'm getting a lot more selective and a lot less distracted.
I do feel that this is linked in to my overall 'masculinity' and social respect. I have always been a lone wolf previously, so this is new territory for me. I want to be ultra confident, to command a room full of people and be able to lead and motivate them.
It's the motivating people thing that I haven't connected with yet. When I run classes, people seem to enjoy them, I say the right things but I don't quite feel that I have connected fully with them yet. Same with my PTs. This could just be a little inner social insecurity.
Less obsessing about my celeb client recently. I think that we just get on really well and I am confusing that with a desire for lust/intimacy. She's pretty, but not really my type physically. I doubt that my subconscious would choose her as a DMSI sniper target.
The life guard/receptionist on the other hand.... I'm finding her more attractive if anything. She's in a relationship though so that presumably negates her as a valid target for the aura/sniper?
Although there are lots of attractive women in the gym, there aren't many that I would have my head turned by. This is good news; I'm getting a lot more selective and a lot less distracted.
Fear Is The Mind-killer
