03-20-2017, 03:20 PM
Time for an update!
Sorry for the lack of these, but I've been keeping busy - which would also indicate that the program is working.
The healing is doing its thing. I get glimpses of healing-related dreams every now and again, but I do not remember them too vividly (I guess I could do some introspection and try to unveil them, but that would be running contrary to the shielding scripting). I feel better each and every day.
Some little bits of resistance here and there, though - I can now see when I'm trying to trick myself into believing that MSI is not for me, or that I cannot or should not have it now, etc. - but I can usually find actual logical inconsistencies in thoughts related to this, and thus try and remove them.
I have been consuming more alcohol and cigarettes than usual, lately, though. This might be resistance-related. I do find myself abstaining from drinking in social settings, though, more often that not.
Women have actually started doing the approaching. I spend quite a bit of time at the conservatory which I graduated, practicing and rehearsing, and there's plenty of attractive women there. So, for instance, even girls whom I do not know would say "hey" or somesuch, and some will even try and strike up a conversation (one was extremely blatant about it - she asked me for a cigarette, then said she does not really smoke, and then proceeded to chat away; the cigarette was definitely an excuse to approach, lol). Another one talked my ear off for about an hour today, right after telling me that I look great for some reason (which she was unable to actually pinpoint, lol) and did it in full view and earshot of numerous other people.
The above is just the tip of the iceberg. Were I to report on every result that I believe is related to DMSI, I would be spending half my day *updating my journal*, so to speak.
The natural seduction aspects for both sides are definitely kicking in.
I believe I have mostly gotten used to the physical sensations of the snipers manifesting. Still getting minor visual artifacts, though, and sometimes the sniper kicks in hard - and then I feel it, and usually something nice happens then!
The above mentioned girl who seems to be in the process of falling in love with me still does give that appearance, and is also gradually becoming more forward. This one definitely needs to bond - I don't mind, great gal, as said before. Also learning a great deal from interacting with her, and seeing how other males and females act around her and in regards to her, as she is, in my belief, a true alpha (or - rather - sigma? According to Shannon's definitions) female in the making, and an extremely sexually attractive woman to boot. In short: the insecurities show, the competitiveness shows, the stupidity shows most definitely (lol).
Fellow males are either ultra-respectful or ultra-scared of me, as far as I can tell.
I believe that the program is developing my DMSI, and doing the reality bend, in a way and at a speed that is pretty much optimal for me. Each day something new and interesting happens.
Killing it in singing and rehearsals. Making extremely rapid progress. Caught a little cold yesterday , due to my own stupidity (which would indicate resistance), but hopefully it should pass quickly without the need to resort to MIR because I'd hate to have to take a break from DMSI right now! This is some really good stuff.
Currently sneezing, taking aspirin, eating some good food and going to bed. If the cold does not spread to my throat/lungs, I shall not have to take a break from DMSI, so fingers crossed.
I have not been following the forums too closely lately due to a lack of time. I will try to catch up when time permits. Hopefully everyone's been having a productive time with DMSI and other subs!
Sorry for the lack of these, but I've been keeping busy - which would also indicate that the program is working.
The healing is doing its thing. I get glimpses of healing-related dreams every now and again, but I do not remember them too vividly (I guess I could do some introspection and try to unveil them, but that would be running contrary to the shielding scripting). I feel better each and every day.
Some little bits of resistance here and there, though - I can now see when I'm trying to trick myself into believing that MSI is not for me, or that I cannot or should not have it now, etc. - but I can usually find actual logical inconsistencies in thoughts related to this, and thus try and remove them.
I have been consuming more alcohol and cigarettes than usual, lately, though. This might be resistance-related. I do find myself abstaining from drinking in social settings, though, more often that not.
Women have actually started doing the approaching. I spend quite a bit of time at the conservatory which I graduated, practicing and rehearsing, and there's plenty of attractive women there. So, for instance, even girls whom I do not know would say "hey" or somesuch, and some will even try and strike up a conversation (one was extremely blatant about it - she asked me for a cigarette, then said she does not really smoke, and then proceeded to chat away; the cigarette was definitely an excuse to approach, lol). Another one talked my ear off for about an hour today, right after telling me that I look great for some reason (which she was unable to actually pinpoint, lol) and did it in full view and earshot of numerous other people.
The above is just the tip of the iceberg. Were I to report on every result that I believe is related to DMSI, I would be spending half my day *updating my journal*, so to speak.
The natural seduction aspects for both sides are definitely kicking in.
I believe I have mostly gotten used to the physical sensations of the snipers manifesting. Still getting minor visual artifacts, though, and sometimes the sniper kicks in hard - and then I feel it, and usually something nice happens then!
The above mentioned girl who seems to be in the process of falling in love with me still does give that appearance, and is also gradually becoming more forward.
This one definitely needs to bond - I don't mind, great gal, as said before. Also learning a great deal from interacting with her, and seeing how other males and females act around her and in regards to her, as she is, in my belief, a true alpha (or - rather - sigma? According to Shannon's definitions) female in the making, and an extremely sexually attractive woman to boot. In short: the insecurities show, the competitiveness shows, the stupidity shows most definitely (lol).Fellow males are either ultra-respectful or ultra-scared of me, as far as I can tell.
I believe that the program is developing my DMSI, and doing the reality bend, in a way and at a speed that is pretty much optimal for me. Each day something new and interesting happens.
Killing it in singing and rehearsals. Making extremely rapid progress. Caught a little cold yesterday , due to my own stupidity (which would indicate resistance), but hopefully it should pass quickly without the need to resort to MIR because I'd hate to have to take a break from DMSI right now! This is some really good stuff.
Currently sneezing, taking aspirin, eating some good food and going to bed. If the cold does not spread to my throat/lungs, I shall not have to take a break from DMSI, so fingers crossed.
I have not been following the forums too closely lately due to a lack of time. I will try to catch up when time permits. Hopefully everyone's been having a productive time with DMSI and other subs!
