It feels a little different today. I'm not feeling horny, at least, not as much as yesterday. I'd say about 50~80% is gone. No fapping, no wet dream, so it wasn't a release. Also, I didn't have any dream last night. I was awaken by some neighbor having sex. (Don't know if it was night, or morning.) I woke up and got back to sleep pretty much right away. I remember that the women's moaning sound wasn't all that sexy nor it was turning me on. (Well, I also find that how the woman moans can be a turn on or off for me......)
Anyway, I went to see my psychiatrist, and before I went to see him, I stopped at a restaurant briefly. There were a few toddlers, and it was a bit different. I remember that I usually get a lot of attention from young children or babies. This time, I didn't get that much attention. Rather, they were paying each other much attention. (It was pretty adorable.) And BTW, some of them were siblings, and others weren't.
This time though, I got a few glances from the babies' mothers. I don't think it was out of ordinary, but since I have gotten a few glances from the moms, I thought to report.
After lunch, I saw the psychiatrist, and came home. Nothing interesting in between.
Another thing I am noticing from others is the increase of fatigue. For some reason, I am not experiencing fatigue. My energy level doesn't feel different. Yet, I'd like to see if it would be any different if I were to go back to the school. (That's the prime time to check.) Am I at more peace? Maybe and maybe not. I don't feel all that different from previous version or from my break.
I suppose the only thing I have is question/doubt/curiosity about the sub. Is it working? Is it not? If it is working, is it effective, or is it not effective? These kind of questions are lingering, but not much. However, I am not feeling/thinking about quitting though. I'm like whatever, I'll just play it, and forget about it.
Yet, one part of me feels/think that yeah, it's really about time that I see a significant result (which I mean by getting laid, and having amazing sex regularly, naturally happening, instead of putting much effort to have that happen). Maybe I'm expecting too much, but it's a feeling I have now.
Anyway, I went to see my psychiatrist, and before I went to see him, I stopped at a restaurant briefly. There were a few toddlers, and it was a bit different. I remember that I usually get a lot of attention from young children or babies. This time, I didn't get that much attention. Rather, they were paying each other much attention. (It was pretty adorable.) And BTW, some of them were siblings, and others weren't.
This time though, I got a few glances from the babies' mothers. I don't think it was out of ordinary, but since I have gotten a few glances from the moms, I thought to report.
After lunch, I saw the psychiatrist, and came home. Nothing interesting in between.
Another thing I am noticing from others is the increase of fatigue. For some reason, I am not experiencing fatigue. My energy level doesn't feel different. Yet, I'd like to see if it would be any different if I were to go back to the school. (That's the prime time to check.) Am I at more peace? Maybe and maybe not. I don't feel all that different from previous version or from my break.
I suppose the only thing I have is question/doubt/curiosity about the sub. Is it working? Is it not? If it is working, is it effective, or is it not effective? These kind of questions are lingering, but not much. However, I am not feeling/thinking about quitting though. I'm like whatever, I'll just play it, and forget about it.
Yet, one part of me feels/think that yeah, it's really about time that I see a significant result (which I mean by getting laid, and having amazing sex regularly, naturally happening, instead of putting much effort to have that happen). Maybe I'm expecting too much, but it's a feeling I have now.
