03-15-2017, 03:38 PM
Well, I went out again for dinner, which I didn't plan on going out. I went out as I found that I ran out of toothpaste that I thought well why the hell not, let's get dinner again.
Nothing of significant importance, (there weren't hot women either), but there is something odd/interesting happened.
The bartender, whom I know, and have seen many times, was acting slightly odd when I was about to sign the receipt and leave. He stood there for a few seconds, speechless, while giving a vibe that he wants to say something. And what he came up with was "would you like more drink?" I declined, shook his hand (I felt the need to do it, as he was frozen there), put on coat, and left.
I haven't had this experience there, so I thought it was worth sharing.
Second thing I am noticing that maybe unhealthy is that I think I may be obsessed to meet the girl from previous encounter. The chance is extremely low, and it may take a long period of time to meet again. (Well it's been more than three weeks since I saw her and the friend.) It feels unhealthy. I think that I may be obsessed with the girl or somewhat actively trying to encounter her, because she was the closest thing to leading to actual sex. Still, a part of me feels that this is wrong.
And lastly, after I got back, I have been having a few erections for no reasons... and I naturally looked at porn, and shut it off very soon. No masturbation though.
Man, it feels that I have to release the sexual urge, but I don't want to or can get myself to get it off manually.
Nothing of significant importance, (there weren't hot women either), but there is something odd/interesting happened.
The bartender, whom I know, and have seen many times, was acting slightly odd when I was about to sign the receipt and leave. He stood there for a few seconds, speechless, while giving a vibe that he wants to say something. And what he came up with was "would you like more drink?" I declined, shook his hand (I felt the need to do it, as he was frozen there), put on coat, and left.
I haven't had this experience there, so I thought it was worth sharing.
Second thing I am noticing that maybe unhealthy is that I think I may be obsessed to meet the girl from previous encounter. The chance is extremely low, and it may take a long period of time to meet again. (Well it's been more than three weeks since I saw her and the friend.) It feels unhealthy. I think that I may be obsessed with the girl or somewhat actively trying to encounter her, because she was the closest thing to leading to actual sex. Still, a part of me feels that this is wrong.
And lastly, after I got back, I have been having a few erections for no reasons... and I naturally looked at porn, and shut it off very soon. No masturbation though.
Man, it feels that I have to release the sexual urge, but I don't want to or can get myself to get it off manually.
