03-13-2017, 02:17 PM
Quote:I've done so much clearing with E2 I would expect things to go relatively smoothly but who knows. One thing I've come to realize for myself is a lot of the stuff I thought was trauma or emotional pain was actually my resistance to letting it go on E2. It's tricky because you want to acknowledge the things that need healing, but at the same time you don't want to get stuck playing the never ending emotional healing game. I've been so deep in my head at times I started inventing problems just so I didn't have to change. The mind is a crazy thing at times.
And around and around we go. That quote is from my first page of my journal by me. I had the same damn realization today and I had a hunch I'd written about it before. What's that mean? I think it means my word vomits over the past few months on AM have been precisely this in action. At this point I'm saying screw it, I'm delegating all responsibility to my subconscious mind to sort everything out and I'm being as hands off as possible. It's what I should have done from the start. I need to start trusting in my subconscious mind more and to stop being such a damn control freak trying to dissect every little thing it's doing.
All this nonsense I've been dealing with could have been easily avoided if I just stopped resisting so much and just trusted in the process. Above all emotional pain doesn't equal more growth, gotta beat that one into my head too. The problem is 90% of people don't have access to the mind like we do through the subliminals, so following along with old methodologies for growth and change isn't a good idea. I keep making these dogmas for myself that hurt me in the long run because it closes the possibilities for faster and quicker results through pain-free methods.
