Day 10:
It's happening again. The rage is surfacing. And there's a distinct pattern...
I actually had a really good morning. I had an unbelievably hot, but older, Asian woman flirt with me after the first Muay Thai class (I went to two). Super tight body, amazing ass that she was showing off in some super tight yoga pants.
Halfway through the class, I suspected she had been hit by the SRS sniper, as she was clearly the hottest chick in there, and I began to feel that undeniable "pull" toward her. I instinctively moved to a heavy bag where she could see my striking technique. I mean, literally instinctively. I didn't even realize what I had done until I caught her looking up at me.
In between classes, she opened me and started asking about my equipment. I mean, I DID look good today -- my muay thai shorts, shirt and gloves all matched and looked really expensive. Then, started flirting and asking how often I come and hopefully we'll see each other again, etc.
There were a lot more women in the second class. They were all super friendly and giggly. One was commenting on my muay thai roundhouse kick, how powerful it was.
The men on the other hand... kept trying to hate. I keep getting these weird, threatening looks. It's like they're just looking dead into my eyes for a minute, then glancing away. I mean, this happened multiple, multiple times today. There's this one super tall, buff alpha that just ghosts me, and that's cool, because he looks like the type to try and bully you if you don't fall in line -- and that's not something that will fly with me. I f*ck up bullies, don't give a shit how big you are.
At one point, I realized that my workout shoes had started to carry an odor (which I promptly threw away after class) and wondered if that's what they were looking at, even though I wasn't wearing them (I took them off when we started doing kicking drills). If so, get the f*ck over it. It's a gym. Sometimes gym equipment smells. Whatever. But this wasn't the first time that the weird looks have happened. It KEEPS. HAPPENING.
Even my MMA coach did it today. Celeb vibe or what?
Anyway, I'm still in the process of organizing my new apartment and started going through my clothes. I realized that I'm down from an XL to a L. Decided to treat myself to some clothes. Ran to Old Navy (because I love their Oxford shirts) and tried on a L. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I was absolutely astonished at what I saw. My presence was just... amazing. I can't even put into words. Everything from my posture, to the physical features of my face seemed to be on point and downright sexy. I think that's why I keep getting women doing doubletakes at me. I'm starting to exude sexiness.
That's when I realized why I've been getting a lot of weird responses from men and women lately. Shannon must've put "eye and facial communication" in the script. As I stared at myself in the mirror, my newfound intense glare communicated raw sexuality and masculinity. I felt like I was looking at the black Wolverine. I noticed that I've been seemingly getting less IOI's, but the ones I get have been exaggerated.
That's because the sub is qualifying and disqualifying women and communicating your intentions through your damn eyes. When you look at a woman on DMSI v3.1, she knows exactly what you're thinking and she knows exactly what you want. I'm going to take the smiles and giggling as her saying, "yes, I'm open to exploring this with you." And when the uglier women are looking up and away (which allegedly signifies that you have no chance), I'm thinking, "who cares, uggo -- really didn't want you anyway."
But back to the rage. It seems to be manifesting after I eat. I'm pretty sure the sourcing is kicking in and the clearing is either going balls deep in my brain (because I'm pretty sure I experienced another reality shift today, I feel totally badass), or the sourcing is kicking the sub on and I'm resisting it.
Anyway, interesting day. I just hate feeling this angry and having to fight to contain it.
It's happening again. The rage is surfacing. And there's a distinct pattern...
I actually had a really good morning. I had an unbelievably hot, but older, Asian woman flirt with me after the first Muay Thai class (I went to two). Super tight body, amazing ass that she was showing off in some super tight yoga pants.
Halfway through the class, I suspected she had been hit by the SRS sniper, as she was clearly the hottest chick in there, and I began to feel that undeniable "pull" toward her. I instinctively moved to a heavy bag where she could see my striking technique. I mean, literally instinctively. I didn't even realize what I had done until I caught her looking up at me.
In between classes, she opened me and started asking about my equipment. I mean, I DID look good today -- my muay thai shorts, shirt and gloves all matched and looked really expensive. Then, started flirting and asking how often I come and hopefully we'll see each other again, etc.
There were a lot more women in the second class. They were all super friendly and giggly. One was commenting on my muay thai roundhouse kick, how powerful it was.
The men on the other hand... kept trying to hate. I keep getting these weird, threatening looks. It's like they're just looking dead into my eyes for a minute, then glancing away. I mean, this happened multiple, multiple times today. There's this one super tall, buff alpha that just ghosts me, and that's cool, because he looks like the type to try and bully you if you don't fall in line -- and that's not something that will fly with me. I f*ck up bullies, don't give a shit how big you are.
At one point, I realized that my workout shoes had started to carry an odor (which I promptly threw away after class) and wondered if that's what they were looking at, even though I wasn't wearing them (I took them off when we started doing kicking drills). If so, get the f*ck over it. It's a gym. Sometimes gym equipment smells. Whatever. But this wasn't the first time that the weird looks have happened. It KEEPS. HAPPENING.
Even my MMA coach did it today. Celeb vibe or what?
Anyway, I'm still in the process of organizing my new apartment and started going through my clothes. I realized that I'm down from an XL to a L. Decided to treat myself to some clothes. Ran to Old Navy (because I love their Oxford shirts) and tried on a L. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I was absolutely astonished at what I saw. My presence was just... amazing. I can't even put into words. Everything from my posture, to the physical features of my face seemed to be on point and downright sexy. I think that's why I keep getting women doing doubletakes at me. I'm starting to exude sexiness.
That's when I realized why I've been getting a lot of weird responses from men and women lately. Shannon must've put "eye and facial communication" in the script. As I stared at myself in the mirror, my newfound intense glare communicated raw sexuality and masculinity. I felt like I was looking at the black Wolverine. I noticed that I've been seemingly getting less IOI's, but the ones I get have been exaggerated.
That's because the sub is qualifying and disqualifying women and communicating your intentions through your damn eyes. When you look at a woman on DMSI v3.1, she knows exactly what you're thinking and she knows exactly what you want. I'm going to take the smiles and giggling as her saying, "yes, I'm open to exploring this with you." And when the uglier women are looking up and away (which allegedly signifies that you have no chance), I'm thinking, "who cares, uggo -- really didn't want you anyway."
But back to the rage. It seems to be manifesting after I eat. I'm pretty sure the sourcing is kicking in and the clearing is either going balls deep in my brain (because I'm pretty sure I experienced another reality shift today, I feel totally badass), or the sourcing is kicking the sub on and I'm resisting it.
Anyway, interesting day. I just hate feeling this angry and having to fight to contain it.
