The saga continues: AM 6

[mat422]

I'm starting to recognize that a lot of my growth is going to involve emotional healing. And the biggest thing holding me back is trying to intellectualize the emotional process. I've been trying to handle my emotions in a "correct" way, whatever the hell that means. I just have a really odd relationship with my emotional self. It's like it's there, but I'm disconnected from it. But not in a detached observer sort of mindfulness good way. More like not acknowledging the pain that sits below the surface. And I keep trying to move forward and let it go, but I'm not letting it go so much as just shoving it down.

Basically there's this need and want to grow. But at times I feel as if I'm lagging behind emotionally and I'm not giving myself the understanding and compassion I need to heal and grow.