03-09-2017, 12:34 PM
Day 14
Weird cycling of pain continues. First while I was trying to sleep, my left foot which I've hurt, somehow, before began to hurt. I had to actually use a cane to walk before. Unfortunately it was not an awesome came but it helped during that time none the less. This morning it was my upper chest and lung type area. That one had more to do with past breathing issues when I was young and had a mild case of asthma (mild enough I grew out of it).
Two other things: 1. I seem to still be peeing more than normal but less than yesterday. 2. I seem to be having some random moments of dread and fear. Not a full fight or flight, fear response but that sense that something is wrong or going to happen. One time occurred while I was looking into DMSI 3.1 journals and upon reflection seems to indicate certain underlying fears I have that may explain why I didn't get much with regards to results with DMSI 3.0.1A as my naturally resistant personality seemed to have combined with those fears to prevent some of the results. It's possible this dread is from the leftovers of my run with DMSI since I jumped into MHS without a break but the random moments of dread beyond that confuses me. None of the fear that I was reflecting upon had anything to do with MHS and being healthy. So I don't what type of fear I'd have that would cause such resistance to it.
Hopefully this will be resolved over the next couple of days because it is annoying to have that feeling of mild dread sitting on me at times without any real context.
Weird cycling of pain continues. First while I was trying to sleep, my left foot which I've hurt, somehow, before began to hurt. I had to actually use a cane to walk before. Unfortunately it was not an awesome came but it helped during that time none the less. This morning it was my upper chest and lung type area. That one had more to do with past breathing issues when I was young and had a mild case of asthma (mild enough I grew out of it).
Two other things: 1. I seem to still be peeing more than normal but less than yesterday. 2. I seem to be having some random moments of dread and fear. Not a full fight or flight, fear response but that sense that something is wrong or going to happen. One time occurred while I was looking into DMSI 3.1 journals and upon reflection seems to indicate certain underlying fears I have that may explain why I didn't get much with regards to results with DMSI 3.0.1A as my naturally resistant personality seemed to have combined with those fears to prevent some of the results. It's possible this dread is from the leftovers of my run with DMSI since I jumped into MHS without a break but the random moments of dread beyond that confuses me. None of the fear that I was reflecting upon had anything to do with MHS and being healthy. So I don't what type of fear I'd have that would cause such resistance to it.
Hopefully this will be resolved over the next couple of days because it is annoying to have that feeling of mild dread sitting on me at times without any real context.
