03-08-2017, 07:47 PM
I like that I don't know SHIT about this new version of DMSI. There's such minimal chance of obtaining placebo results because Shannon was so anti-hype with his updates, that minimal information about 3.1 was released. This sucks in a way because I love to know what's doing what. But it's also great because I know for sure that results = results and not some clever ploy I designed in my head XD
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I'm still exhausted, but not as bad as it was before. I almost fell asleep at the office today O_O. I had to go and make a double coffee at 3:30 pm just to stay awake. Considering the new strategy that "only the parts of me that resist get exhausted", a LOT of me must be resisting the changes!!!!! I'm thinking of taking a 24 hour break from 3.1 but in a way I'm afraid that if I do, I will succumb to the "run away" outcome.
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I went out for lunch today. I ordered chinese food, and when I went to pick it up, I was greeted by this banging blonde cashier who was the manager there. And it wasn't just any banging blonde girl. Something about her felt a bit... odd? Can't lay my finger on it but I got flustered by her presence. I felt something inside of me react to her presence. Was she a manifestation?
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I was calm at work all day, albeit sleepy. After, I was exhausted while driving, and couldn't form coherent sentences while talking to L on the phone. I hang up, call someone else, and all of a sudden I'm having flowing conversations with this guy. I hang up with him, and call another girl (i'll call her mex). This conversation was awesome, and filled with energy and laughter. I hang up with mex, and pick up my sister from the airport.
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I dunno if I'm truly resisting, or if I'm just not able to process how fast my reality is shifting therefore I'm met with exhaustion -- reality bending takes a shit ton of energy, I'm sure.
OH SHIT I just realized I've been on the clearing version.... If there's anything I remember from clearing of 3.0.1, it's that clearing also takes a shit ton of energy. So maybe I'm just focusing this energy on clearing! Who knows. I've been too busy to have time to internalize what's going on, nor have I had a chance to read through the journals on here so I don't know what's collectively going on with others on this sub.
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I'm still exhausted, but not as bad as it was before. I almost fell asleep at the office today O_O. I had to go and make a double coffee at 3:30 pm just to stay awake. Considering the new strategy that "only the parts of me that resist get exhausted", a LOT of me must be resisting the changes!!!!! I'm thinking of taking a 24 hour break from 3.1 but in a way I'm afraid that if I do, I will succumb to the "run away" outcome.
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I went out for lunch today. I ordered chinese food, and when I went to pick it up, I was greeted by this banging blonde cashier who was the manager there. And it wasn't just any banging blonde girl. Something about her felt a bit... odd? Can't lay my finger on it but I got flustered by her presence. I felt something inside of me react to her presence. Was she a manifestation?
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I was calm at work all day, albeit sleepy. After, I was exhausted while driving, and couldn't form coherent sentences while talking to L on the phone. I hang up, call someone else, and all of a sudden I'm having flowing conversations with this guy. I hang up with him, and call another girl (i'll call her mex). This conversation was awesome, and filled with energy and laughter. I hang up with mex, and pick up my sister from the airport.
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I dunno if I'm truly resisting, or if I'm just not able to process how fast my reality is shifting therefore I'm met with exhaustion -- reality bending takes a shit ton of energy, I'm sure.
OH SHIT I just realized I've been on the clearing version.... If there's anything I remember from clearing of 3.0.1, it's that clearing also takes a shit ton of energy. So maybe I'm just focusing this energy on clearing! Who knows. I've been too busy to have time to internalize what's going on, nor have I had a chance to read through the journals on here so I don't know what's collectively going on with others on this sub.
