I have a lot of trauma from past relationships that I'm carrying around. I'm deeply afraid of women hurting me which is undoubtedly at least one source of my resistance to AM6 and self-sabotage with women. I'm afraid of getting intimate with women now, I don't want sex because I don't trust myself to make myself vulnerable that way again. There's too much hurt there and I'm trying to protect myself, that was the reason for wanting to be a player in the first place.
I went on a date last night and I'm going on another tonight so at least I'm getting out there but I find myself resisting doing the things that make women attracted and instead have as my game plan the things that put me in the friend zone. Last night for example we talked about politics which will be the reason I won't see her again. I know not to do that, I know to talk about relationships and sex instead but 1. I don't care enough about the outcome and 2. I resist being sexually forward (touching, conversation, etc.)
I feel positive about AM6. I always end up that way when I see what it's trying to do and the way forward.
I went on a date last night and I'm going on another tonight so at least I'm getting out there but I find myself resisting doing the things that make women attracted and instead have as my game plan the things that put me in the friend zone. Last night for example we talked about politics which will be the reason I won't see her again. I know not to do that, I know to talk about relationships and sex instead but 1. I don't care enough about the outcome and 2. I resist being sexually forward (touching, conversation, etc.)
I feel positive about AM6. I always end up that way when I see what it's trying to do and the way forward.
