Long report coming tomorrow as I've been traveling from VA to NC to GA and back for the past few days but I'm experiencing some very massive shifts in my thought patterns and habits in just three days.
For example, I suddenly became overwhelmed at the outpouring of warmth and kindness I received from my ex and her new husband this weekend. It was nice feeling part of a family again and I indulged in that moment. I've spent the last decade just pushing people away, never letting them get close... and there was something very real about just being able to let go and have fun. Feels like I released something.
Then, I was in the gas station, eyeballing this very pretty blonde. Well... pretty to me -- she looked kinda weird / hipsterish, but was still my type. And all of a sudden, I broke out in song. This song to be exact: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BqtmXnQZ6Qk (which I used to sing to my daughter over the phone when I was in CA and she was in NC).
When I realized what I was doing, the blonde spun around, started grinning and asked why I stopped. Said she loved that song.
I would've gotten her number, but... I was in South Carolina at the time, soooo...
Anyway -- that weird resistance passed, and it's been pure bliss since then. Also, got the strong urge to switch from masked to hybrid. Doing that now.
For example, I suddenly became overwhelmed at the outpouring of warmth and kindness I received from my ex and her new husband this weekend. It was nice feeling part of a family again and I indulged in that moment. I've spent the last decade just pushing people away, never letting them get close... and there was something very real about just being able to let go and have fun. Feels like I released something.
Then, I was in the gas station, eyeballing this very pretty blonde. Well... pretty to me -- she looked kinda weird / hipsterish, but was still my type. And all of a sudden, I broke out in song. This song to be exact: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BqtmXnQZ6Qk (which I used to sing to my daughter over the phone when I was in CA and she was in NC).
When I realized what I was doing, the blonde spun around, started grinning and asked why I stopped. Said she loved that song.
I would've gotten her number, but... I was in South Carolina at the time, soooo...
Anyway -- that weird resistance passed, and it's been pure bliss since then. Also, got the strong urge to switch from masked to hybrid. Doing that now.
