03-03-2017, 05:33 PM
Apparently I'm resisting the "Don't Be a Dick," module. Well, things couldn't stay rosy forever.
As the day progressed post-gym, I became more and more irritable. I snapped at my wife and son multiple times. Made both of 'em cry. Go me.
Apparently, my number one response to stress is anger. I then want to isolate myself, because I don't trust myself to not overreact to everything and lose my temper. I'm not sure I'm ever going to be able to develop a healthy coping mechanism. I hate responding with anger, and the last thing I want is to pass it on to my kids, like my dad did to me.
This evening, wife has gone off to work, son has gone off to bed, and I have a very strong urge to drink. I haven't been interested in drinking, other than a beer at a meal out here and there, in a long time. Now I'm getting oscillating feelings of anger and sadness, and have a strong desire to not feel it anymore.
Well, onward. It will be interesting to see how fast V3.1 can break through this.
As the day progressed post-gym, I became more and more irritable. I snapped at my wife and son multiple times. Made both of 'em cry. Go me.
Apparently, my number one response to stress is anger. I then want to isolate myself, because I don't trust myself to not overreact to everything and lose my temper. I'm not sure I'm ever going to be able to develop a healthy coping mechanism. I hate responding with anger, and the last thing I want is to pass it on to my kids, like my dad did to me.
This evening, wife has gone off to work, son has gone off to bed, and I have a very strong urge to drink. I haven't been interested in drinking, other than a beer at a meal out here and there, in a long time. Now I'm getting oscillating feelings of anger and sadness, and have a strong desire to not feel it anymore.
Well, onward. It will be interesting to see how fast V3.1 can break through this.
