03-02-2017, 04:14 AM
Feeling moody and irritable and weird compulsion to get my fat ass to the gym. I'm actually a little miserable and disgusted with the level at which I'm playing health wise. I don't support myself at fricken all. Discontent is needed in order to change these shitty habits. I've tried being positive and going the 'doing things because I value myself' route and it only works to a certain point, ultimately an undesirable state of living is negative by definition and I think the key is to channel that negativity well.
Perhaps its MHS pushing me to do things conducive to health and be averse to whatever is health damaging. I'm not having sugar anymore and get annoyed at myself for even having sweetners.
I'm a little unsure about what is better, 5 loops of ultrasonic over night or 4 hours masked hybrid. am back to the former as it's easier to maintain , and the general mental awakeness is back. But also there is a kind of ungroundedness which is there when my ADD gets a little more acute. I'm back to meditating and morning yoga. I'll probably take some time off work this month just to focus on gym, eating healthy and studying.
Perhaps its MHS pushing me to do things conducive to health and be averse to whatever is health damaging. I'm not having sugar anymore and get annoyed at myself for even having sweetners.
I'm a little unsure about what is better, 5 loops of ultrasonic over night or 4 hours masked hybrid. am back to the former as it's easier to maintain , and the general mental awakeness is back. But also there is a kind of ungroundedness which is there when my ADD gets a little more acute. I'm back to meditating and morning yoga. I'll probably take some time off work this month just to focus on gym, eating healthy and studying.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
