02-25-2017, 07:29 AM
Ok that last post spurred something in me. It's a pattern that occurs a lot with this sub. I get closer to breaking through and finding a way out of my own misery, but then I start thinking things like "this isn't me" or "I'm not really like this, I'm just faking it". And that's what causes me to spiral back into my unwanted behavior under the assumption that it's really my true self.
I'm going to focus on building myself up from now on. To stop believing the negative thoughts I tell myself and refuse to acknowledge them as the truth. I've been resisting the changes a lot in this sub. I keep dwelling on the negative and expecting the sub to magically pull me out of these states or reverse my thinking. But that's wrong. I have to change my thinking. I have to break my habit of constantly beating myself up. Ultimately I'm the one doing it to myself and I'm the only one that can stop it.
I'm going to focus on building myself up from now on. To stop believing the negative thoughts I tell myself and refuse to acknowledge them as the truth. I've been resisting the changes a lot in this sub. I keep dwelling on the negative and expecting the sub to magically pull me out of these states or reverse my thinking. But that's wrong. I have to change my thinking. I have to break my habit of constantly beating myself up. Ultimately I'm the one doing it to myself and I'm the only one that can stop it.
