12-04-2011, 04:57 PM
Stage 5 has begun.
Actually I started it a few days ago and I believe this is night 5.
I have hit a little bit of resistance and what's noticeable is my social ability seems non existent right now but I'm very comfortable with everything. I'm on a business trip now and all I care about is doing a real tight job on the filming I have to do which continues to improve. My ability to focus has gotten much much better as well.
I have had some minimal bouts of jealousy today and yesterday but no women around so I'm not sure if I have a neediness issue right now. Maybe the only thing is I want people to like and respect me... AND I'm getting that.
Also I'm more critical of people's behavior and I find it ridiculous how people don't answer after you've asked a question. Even if they are clearly not pre occupied with something more important than myself and my question. This drives me nuts and all it takes is a little bit of awareness and consideration. I project my voice effortlessly now and I don't know if some people diliberatly(sp?) ignore me but it's unacceptable. Unless you are old and deaf.
My natural charm and smiley sense of humor is down also.. so that confirms I am in a phase of resistance. I'll just make a few badass television shows and ride this out.
Actually I started it a few days ago and I believe this is night 5.
I have hit a little bit of resistance and what's noticeable is my social ability seems non existent right now but I'm very comfortable with everything. I'm on a business trip now and all I care about is doing a real tight job on the filming I have to do which continues to improve. My ability to focus has gotten much much better as well.
I have had some minimal bouts of jealousy today and yesterday but no women around so I'm not sure if I have a neediness issue right now. Maybe the only thing is I want people to like and respect me... AND I'm getting that.
Also I'm more critical of people's behavior and I find it ridiculous how people don't answer after you've asked a question. Even if they are clearly not pre occupied with something more important than myself and my question. This drives me nuts and all it takes is a little bit of awareness and consideration. I project my voice effortlessly now and I don't know if some people diliberatly(sp?) ignore me but it's unacceptable. Unless you are old and deaf.
My natural charm and smiley sense of humor is down also.. so that confirms I am in a phase of resistance. I'll just make a few badass television shows and ride this out.
"To love completely and hold onto nothing-that is the only freedom." -David Deida
"If at first glance it may appear too hard, look again. Always look again." - Unknown
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"If at first glance it may appear too hard, look again. Always look again." - Unknown
If you would like to get in touch with me, please send me an email.
