The saga continues: AM 6

[mat422]

You know I've been thinking about this lately and I don't give myself enough credit for my achievements. I'll go a whole day at work with no anxiety and tell myself that's how normal people are supposed to function instead of acknowledging how much I've grown. I'll finish a coding exercise and instead of congratulating myself I just dwell on the fact that there are people way better than me who already have jobs. Then I'll recognize the lack of compassion for myself and decide to read a book on compassion because for some reason I need something externally telling me it's ok not to be hard on myself. That last one is the most sad humorous thing I've encountered in my life. I literally need a book to tell me it's ok to be nicer to myself. There's a problem with that.

From today onward I'm going to be nicer to myself. I'm going to do my best and if it doesn't work out I'll just figure out how to make it work without getting down on myself. This whole tough love beat myself up to achieve results hasn't been working so it's time to try something different.