02-09-2017, 05:07 PM
Emotional Pain Relief & Healing Aid 2.0
-Geist said this here
Quote:Hey guys I wanted to share my results so far. Small background on me, I've always been hyper-sensitive to emotions. My life has been a up and down roller coaster of emotions, I've never been stable/balanced. I also had a very weak sense of self, as in I didn't love who I was and was constantly shaming myself. After reading through the E2 check list, I figured I'd start here first since most of my problems stem from being overly-emotional (in the negative spectrum), felt like all the bad in my life was my fault, and I was ashamed and embarrassed to be me.
I wanted to heal the relationship that I have with myself, and find an emotional balance - a strong foundation of equanimity.
I've been using E2 for 95 days now (around 8-12 loops a day) and it's been an interesting experience.
I'll make a bullet point list of how I've changed sinced Day 1:
-During the course of the program I changed my diet to a more Pescatarian diet, I don't consume meat or dairy products. I became empathetic to the animals that are bred just to be consumed as food in those slaughter factories
-I've become a lot more emotional resilient. I'm interning at a company to become a software engineer, and everything the CTO has asked me to do, I did it. I was learning automated testing which is a topic I've never learned before. I went through so many hurdles to get it working over the course of a month - but the results? I learned it! E2 helped me stay calm, collected, and focused through the frustration of learning something new
- When I'm not through the resistance period of the sub, I feel like I'm exploding with positive energy, a good IDGAF vibe, being fun, and radiating awesome energy that I've seen countless times through other people's reactions when I'm interacting with them in this state. Everything is okay, there's nothing to worry about, I'm completely at ease. I'm in control, I feel like I can do anything - no inhibition, pure freedom to express myself.
- I used to be judgmental and opinionated towards others who I didn't feel were doing the right thing in their lives, this has gone down a lot so my perception of people is like "Hey your journey in life belongs to you, I wish you the best"
- Much more gratitude and appreciation for what I have. I also pray and wish the best for people and am grateful for other people's blessings.
- Throughout most of this sub, I was able to be chill with my dad - which I harbor most of my resentment towards for how mentally abusive he was through my life. Unfortunately just recently, he lashed out at me for another reason which wasn't really my fault, and this caused that resentment and deep anger to come back towards him - which I thought went away. It's leveled out now, so I just ignore him and don't talk with him.
- When I'm in the resistant state (which I am now currently), it's not as bad as the previous resistant state. It's like as I'm climbing out of the hole I've dug for myself, dirt is being thrown in so I don't fall further down, I can only go up towards a better life - there is no feeling of permanent regression, only growth.
- I've become more sensitive to my self-image, which has reflected in how well I take care of my hygiene and fashion.
- I've been clean off alcohol and drugs since August 14th, 2016. I started E2 Oct 21st, and it has helped me resist urges initially but now I'm completely not interested at all anymore. Most of my friends are heavy alcohol users, and I still hang out with them but temptation is no longer an issue. Funny enough, I've inspired them to cut down alcohol use and we've been doing more positive activities together like float therapy and massages.
- When I'm in the On-state, I smile and say hi to people and 100% (No exaggeration) of the time, they respond positively. Especially with girls. Whenever I'm out and chat with them, the girls are always engaged and happy around me. I know if I learned outer game techniques and developed my skill in that, dating would be easy. EX: One time my friend was with me in the car, I honked and waved at 2 hot girls jogging on the street and they all waved back. We were at the beach and two girls who were shooting photos of the ocean came and I talked with them and they wouldn't stop smiling back at me despite that I had to leave.
Another similar event occurred when I yelled something funny to a sales girl outside the clothing store, my friends were like "dude she's gonna think you're an idiot" and after I said the funny thing, the girl laughed and smiled at me and my friends got quite when I was like, "See? she LOVED it" and my friend who was with me earlier that day was like, "Yeah this happened to P (me) 4 times with other girls today".
I still have pangs of negative emotions, especially with anger, injustice, and self-worth but overall things have become much better.
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