Mystic Pymp on DMSI 2.4→2.5→3.0.1A→3.1A/B→3.2A/B→3.3D→3.3.1D

[Mystic Pymp]

Day 57

Today I will stop listening to the DMSI in anticipation for the next version.

Not much to say in terms of results, I'm getting some eye-contact from girls on the streets but otherwise it's all around mess, both in real world and online. I still feel depressed, although it's much better than 2 weeks ago or so. Right now I'm preoccupied with exams and projects, so it helps me not to think about how everything is crap.

I'm really sorry to hear that you haven't had as much success as you initially anticipated. In regards to depression, would you say that it comes and goes in cycles with confidence/euphoria, like others have been experiencing, or would you say that the vast majority of your time spent on this sub has left you aching and miserable?

Sorry for late reply, but I'm other matter keep me occupied. I'd say the first one for the most part. Depression seems to be creeping only when I slack and do nothing, it's almost like sub tries to motivate me with stick and carrot. You do well? You get some happy thoughts. You did nothing but sit idly entire day? Go depressed. Funny thing is last week changes between moods had been so frequent that I fear I might be developing bipolar disorder. As of writing this I feel well, perhaps not euphoric but optimistic and content for sure.

Strange thing happened last 2 weeks. My female friend I was keeping in friendzone for at least half a year flirted heavy with me, was bumping my leg under the table and saying stuff like "guy I like doesn't notice me" etc. I didn't know what to do at first so I was playing dumb, but when we meet again she said she was talking about PhD student she has classes with. We were not alone, so it was hard to gauge her body language if she said truth or I was right (she's quite shy). I tried to invite her out for a beer tonight, but she passes exams poorly and said he'd rather study. On the phone she sounded really depressed, so I believe her. Still this whole situation was... weird. I guess I should have confront her from the start, but we were both drunk and I didn't wanted to hurt her or promise her something I wouldn't be able to deliver.