02-01-2017, 07:57 AM
You guys ever make a journal entry and delete it like 5 times as you pour through the constant stream of thoughts? That's me right now. As I've run this program my desire to be perceived as alpha has diminished. Which is a good thing. I still get self conscious at times or anxious around other people. But it's getting better. Overall I feel like I'm getting closer to being able to just be myself and not care what others think. I guess that's always been my goal, I just want to live my life free from the influences of other's opinions.
Where I'm still struggling. Finding some way to support myself financially. I still need to make the leap into an actual career. But I don't want to start pursuing some career just out of fear. For now I'm just going to keep looking for opportunities and meditating on something coming about. At least now it's not a question of I can't, but more when it'll happen for me. So in that regard I've definitely become more optimistic about getting this area of my life sorted out.
Where I'm still struggling. Finding some way to support myself financially. I still need to make the leap into an actual career. But I don't want to start pursuing some career just out of fear. For now I'm just going to keep looking for opportunities and meditating on something coming about. At least now it's not a question of I can't, but more when it'll happen for me. So in that regard I've definitely become more optimistic about getting this area of my life sorted out.
