Spiral's Sex Magnet 2011 journal

[Spiral]

Well I have probably started to seem like an asshole to some people but I'm still friendly. Mainly referring to work colleagues. But I'm starting to get real sick of it all and have been looking for jobs the past month or so. Applying to anything I come across that fits me. But before I apply to anymore I'm going to send some follow up emails to these employers or even call them to ask about how their search is going and if they've come across my resume etc. I'm becoming more indifferent and not so much of a flirt right now. My flirting mainly consists of light sarcasm and sometimes role play. I do enjoy the sarcastic role play but I could be much better at it. I don't linger when conversation gets stale or once I lose interest. I let go of things pretty easily now and I sing even louder in the office and sing when people come into my office so it's fun. I'm becoming more comfortable making a fool out of myself and I would love to continue developing this trait. Maybe I'll make it a hobby. O.o

Other than that.. I'm still working hard at developing my technique on drums. Awareness of breathing while playing. And the occasional meditation. Things are fine.. they could be better.. and I'm taking the necessary steps for that to happen whether small or big. I'm more direct and honest and carefree about what people think. And I apologize to all you but I don't feel like posting in other journals much anymore. I do occasionally read them but I must be coming down with "who cares about a message board" syndrome.