(01-20-2017, 09:20 AM)Frosted Wrote: I've been procrastinating too, except now I don't get panicked right before the deadline and do it real quick.
Hey at least it gets done. That's good
So the other day I felt it was necessary to read up on the AM6 instructions. I don't know why, I just felt like it was a good idea. It got to the part in the instructions about reading that book by John Alexander. I realized I never did that in my prior runs. So I bought it and I've been reading it and I realized some really important things about myself.
First off it was stupid of me to assume I knew what alpha was without having any real experience with it. When I saw that book in the recommendations my first thought was that it could be helpful but I was above all that. I wasn't. I had some serious insecurities surrounding that area of my life. I took the "I don't care" apathy route where on the surface I convinced myself none of it mattered but underneath it all I wanted it. Told myself I didn't care if I was dominant, but I did. Our wants, desires, they exist. It's better to acknowledge them and go after them instead of pretending we don't need them in order to make ourselves feel better. There's a difference between being a slave to what you want and actually getting it.
Anyway as I was reading this book I was really insecure. Everything this guy was talking about I didn't live as and I wrongly assumed that I didn't have to follow what he did. That I could do my own thing and get my own better results. But here I was taking a good hard objective look at myself. Did I have success with women? No. Was I a leader?. No. Did I have the mindset of being an alpha male? Hell no. I was still wrapped up in my old self somehow thinking that my way of living and being was more genuine or truthful than being alpha.
I like drawing similarities between things in my life to demonstrate points so that's what I'm gonnna do now. In music, you have theory. Theory helps you write cohesive music that sounds good. Sure you can just bang on the keys and spend hours trying to figure out something good, but it's a waste of energy and time. Theory helps you make something that sounds objectively good, not great mind you, but good to most people. It's the same thing with this alpha stuff. It's important to have a foundation to go off of for alpha behavior so you have a rough guideline. When you're more advanced you can go off and do your own thing, but in the beginning stages it's important to understand that sometimes you don't know as much as you think you do about something.
I've always been the type of guy that needs to understand the why behind something before I really get it and I feel like reading this book is helping me grow faster and get past some of the resistance I was stuck on and not realizing what it was.
