01-20-2017, 09:12 PM
(01-20-2017, 01:39 PM)blackwing Z Wrote: That completely threw me off GUARD lol. I thought you were like a software engineer or something.. Must be a hell of an interesting job. I used to work in Harlem, and that shit was eye opening. Always kept me aware of reality and pushed me insanely hard. That's why I cant relate to people on here who play videos games until they are 30 years old.
I noticed my mood on AM6 has been lightening up lately too. I dont want to be so different from the rest either. I dont even know what ALPHA means... been thinking about it...
Like now that I am going to be working in an office/lab setting, I have to learn to cooperate more with people, and actually have a soft side and develop and CARE for relationships.
Also, whats point in being Alpha if there is no love? How can a social creature be at its peak without the love/respect of other people?
IDK man, im not trying to sound all trippy. It's just most of us on the AM6 journey been getting too serious and dark, almost completely disconnected.
Lol emphasis on the guard eh I hate that term cuz we do pretty much everything until other frontline services arrive. It's tough mentally bro every is being watched and we deal with fucked up people that put our lives in danger. It pays well but I think I got into this field for a reason and that is to be more of a man and lead by being part of something. You think we're getting dark but that's only one side of the story. For me, being adaptable and exploring feelings seem to be showing a lot of benefits I have. Tough to explain but there are times where I feel being part of law enforcement isn't alpha and having my own business is but what we want is not always what we need or what is right for life. Try having a balance between dark and light? Dissolve things that restrict you. Bro for the longest time I had a ego felt like a robot. It pushed people away now that I've found love people are coming to me I don't need to prove anything
