Superman's DMSI v3+ journal

[Superman]

I just thought I'd write a little about this heavy feeling that I get. I first experienced it when I was heartbroken for the very first time. I was devastated and basically forced myself to give up all hope that I would ever have her and the life I wanted. As I grew older and got hurt a little more I found the manosphere or red pill as some like to call it and It just made me very cynical and pessimistic towards women and life in general. Ever since my first heartbreak I've carried some of this heavy feeling with me and the only time it reduces or goes away is when I immerse myself in memories of the past before the heartbreak happened. If anything reminds me of those times when I was happy I can feel the weight lift for a moment and when I become too conscious of the feeling it goes back to how it was.

I'm not sure if the heavy feeling is there 24/7 but if it is its something I've just become used to

I'd be eternally grateful if a sub could make this feeling go away