01-11-2017, 03:44 PM
Day 41
I remember I wrote I'd post daily but I don't have much need to do so now. I feel better but still shitty, at least now I can make myself do some useful work and not hate myself for it. Lots of negativity and self-pity though, it's something I really don't like and I'd get rid of it ASAP.
I had kind of euphoric experience today. At the same time I felt quite like I had those morphine highs a couple weeks back, but at the same time I was very fearful. Pretty much two opposites at the same time. It was triggered by beautiful music playing from my phone and heavy snowfall which looked almost like from a fairytale. Interesting experience, but without much bearing on rest of the day.
I remember I wrote I'd post daily but I don't have much need to do so now. I feel better but still shitty, at least now I can make myself do some useful work and not hate myself for it. Lots of negativity and self-pity though, it's something I really don't like and I'd get rid of it ASAP.
I had kind of euphoric experience today. At the same time I felt quite like I had those morphine highs a couple weeks back, but at the same time I was very fearful. Pretty much two opposites at the same time. It was triggered by beautiful music playing from my phone and heavy snowfall which looked almost like from a fairytale. Interesting experience, but without much bearing on rest of the day.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
