alpha 4

[kingcobra]

I looked through that list and this looks mostly like self esteem issues, you might want to focus on that a bit more as well. There should be no real self validation going on with any of this stuff, that has to come from within, and until it does, these problems will remain.

I see what you're saying. What do you suggest?

When our buckets are empty, we have to fill it up with something so we leave it on our doorstep to collect what water may come, which will be of various quantities and qualities but it never amounts to much other than some pretty muddy water.

The more water collecting matters to you, and the greater the need to collect it, the worse off you will be. You need to find yourself first, and then and only then will these other tempting things come to you.

Now when someone has significant needs like that shopping list indicates, there is usually a number of things that one needs to work on, but the work has to be internally focused not externally. There are several programs that may help, the best way to approach this is perhaps to have one look upon what is available and use one's intuition, but there are a few choices that we could probably say would help, the self esteem one obviously, life tune up, love and appreciate yourself, forgive yourself, happiness and joy, deep gratitude, emotional pain relief, a few others perhaps along the same lines of looking to ground oneself and love oneself more.

This may take some real time but things worthwhile often do. Once one deepens one's self love enough then and only then should you look to focus on others loving you more, so to speak. You have to make yourself more worthy first and I don't think that this is a step you can ever skip, and as they say, if you build it they will come