01-05-2017, 07:36 PM
(01-05-2017, 06:25 PM)Illumi Wrote:(01-05-2017, 05:10 PM)Shannon Wrote: I have been off DMSI for a week now. The last version I used, for 2 days, was B.
All week, I have been raging internally. Pushed my girlfriend away, no communication... when she tried to force communication, basically yelled at her over text message. I pushed her away so that would not happen.
Through all this, the consistent theme that's come up is that some part of me is extremely upset to be limited in the ways that it is limited. It's trying to grow and break free of those limits. I think that's what the rage is. Trying to execute the code and finding oneself tied down by all sorts of societal and other restrictions, and responding with frustration that grows into anger and rage.
And here i was like thinking that since you are " probably " the most cleared/healed DMSI user not to mention all the sexual experiances you have had.
I thought you were getting 100% of V3.0.1 had to offer but that seems not to be the case since even advanced users need thier own type of clearing on top of the regular one.
Maybe I am the most cleared, maybe I'm not. But none of us has nothing left to achieve for growth. Remember that you are free to use DMSI a lot more than I am, since I have to focus on BAMM.
None of us is getting 100% of what DMSI 3.0.1 has to offer. We are still working through and breaking free of the restrictions we have, internally and externally. One thing that I feel big time is...
I am outgrowing this cage. I think a lot of us are currently outgrowing cages we didn't know we were in.
I'm going to try to increase the speed of healing and clearing while preventing the negative side effects, but there will always be a limit to how fast a person can safely heal, clear and grow.
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The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!