Day 35 - Flac + Hybrid Trickling Stream + Earbuds on 4-5 out of 15 notches
Day 3 of B now - 32 days of A before this
Nothing interesting to report with the female sex..
But.
I got something interesting for Shannon.
So, I was getting these thoughts of trying out Ultrasonic or Masked, switching to MP3, thoughts how "why bother, it ain't even working".
Also thoughts on how "ultrasonic gave instant symptoms!".
Obviously resistance.
So, what I did is run two extra loops of B.
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Yes, I know that it's like shooting myself with a machine gun directly into the brain.. But I figured that I have pretty good willpower to survive, even if the subconscious would make me want to switch, and make it seem like it's my idea.
So, the most important thing for you, Shannon, is this.
5 minutes into the loops, I started getting an emotional rollercoaster. I NEVER had this before. It was so obviously caused by B.
It was structured in a cycle.
1 - Rage.
2 - Depression and hopelessness.
3 - Relief and slight happiness.
4 - Neutral state.
This repeated 2 times by now (listening to B at the moment, lol). The states were long enough to notice them and experience them, but short enough so that you can catch these cycles and notice what is happening.
My theory is that this is resistance getting brute forced. But, that's up to your interpretation Shannon, I'm just reporting anything that might be useful and/or interesting.
Quick Addition
On A, I noticed that I was getting back to gaming (been binging on Paladins, lol). I had to consciously limit my desire for gaming so as to try and keep my schedule of growth stimuli/study/work.
After the double input of B, I summarized a chapter out of my Psychology textbook (despite raging like a retard, because B), and finished a quite big chunk of work. The desire for gaming was there, lessened, but there was also a rekindling of desire for work and study, without the guilt of being too hard on myself accompanying it.
Day 5 of B - Day 1 of A
Switched to A.
Day 13 of A - 49 days in total
Just quick updates so I can keep track of how many days I'm on what sub.
Going to stop loops now, see if the bloom is there and decide if I'll wait for 3.1.
Resumed loops on 21st, so now is..day 16 of A, 52 days in total.
Day 33 of A - 69 days in total
Stopped DMSI yesterday (so technically, it was day 32..), in preparation for DMSI 3.1.
Day 3 of B now - 32 days of A before this
Nothing interesting to report with the female sex..
But.
I got something interesting for Shannon.
So, I was getting these thoughts of trying out Ultrasonic or Masked, switching to MP3, thoughts how "why bother, it ain't even working".
Also thoughts on how "ultrasonic gave instant symptoms!".
Obviously resistance.
So, what I did is run two extra loops of B.
...
...
...
Yes, I know that it's like shooting myself with a machine gun directly into the brain.. But I figured that I have pretty good willpower to survive, even if the subconscious would make me want to switch, and make it seem like it's my idea.
So, the most important thing for you, Shannon, is this.
5 minutes into the loops, I started getting an emotional rollercoaster. I NEVER had this before. It was so obviously caused by B.
It was structured in a cycle.
1 - Rage.
2 - Depression and hopelessness.
3 - Relief and slight happiness.
4 - Neutral state.
This repeated 2 times by now (listening to B at the moment, lol). The states were long enough to notice them and experience them, but short enough so that you can catch these cycles and notice what is happening.
My theory is that this is resistance getting brute forced. But, that's up to your interpretation Shannon, I'm just reporting anything that might be useful and/or interesting.
Quick Addition
On A, I noticed that I was getting back to gaming (been binging on Paladins, lol). I had to consciously limit my desire for gaming so as to try and keep my schedule of growth stimuli/study/work.
After the double input of B, I summarized a chapter out of my Psychology textbook (despite raging like a retard, because B), and finished a quite big chunk of work. The desire for gaming was there, lessened, but there was also a rekindling of desire for work and study, without the guilt of being too hard on myself accompanying it.
Day 5 of B - Day 1 of A
Switched to A.
Day 13 of A - 49 days in total
Just quick updates so I can keep track of how many days I'm on what sub.
Going to stop loops now, see if the bloom is there and decide if I'll wait for 3.1.
Resumed loops on 21st, so now is..day 16 of A, 52 days in total.
Day 33 of A - 69 days in total
Stopped DMSI yesterday (so technically, it was day 32..), in preparation for DMSI 3.1.
