12-20-2016, 07:22 AM
(12-19-2016, 11:47 AM)Mystic Pymp Wrote:(12-19-2016, 09:38 AM)Shannon Wrote: ...
What this shows is that potential may not have reached it's peak, but capacity is still there to do a lot more than sit around and play games, and because society expects nothing of them, they don't try in most cases to achieve even a fraction of what potential they have, which costs them dearly later in life.
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Throwing away one's youth because your full potential capacity isn't reached until your 30s is an excuse and justification to be stupid and party more, IMHO.
Very well said Shannon and I agree with you 100%. I didn't mean to say I should keep wasting my life since I lives maybe 1/4 of it (although I guess I have right to it, it's my life after all to waste). What I meant and I think didn't explain well is that I have this feeling I wasted so much of it and it means two things:
1) There must be something fundamentally wrong with me and if one considers his youth his best time most of what I could have gotten from life is gone and
2) Since premise of the point above is false and everything is yet ahead of me I should not hold onto past mistakes and let them hold me down.
Did I screw up in my past, could I have done more? Sure, in retrospect the answer is yes. It doesn't mean the person (man? boy?) I was back then could have. He didn't know as much as I know now and wasn't even the person I am now. What I need to do now is to learn from those lessons past me learnt the hard way but at the same time not hold grudge or hate to myself for those mistakes. And if there was one thing my last post was to convey, it was that there is still more hope and more to experience than I realize. If anything it gives me no other option than to care for my garden as wasting even more of that potential would be unforgivable. It doesn't mean care for the garden will be easy, it wasn't easy thus far, but any other option is unacceptable.
To sum up: I didn't mean I can keep wasting my life because I still have time. I meant that although I lost much I didn't lose enough to brand my life wasted and forsake hope.
Or am I still thinking something wrong?
I relate to this post so hard right now. lol.
Taking a good honest look back through my life shows me point blank that I wasted my formative years. But does that mean I am useless now? far from it, pal! For one, people like you and me are taking active efforts in identifying flaws -> repairing -> upgrading our lives. This alone sets us ahead of the game. Metaphorically speaking, if we wasted the first 80 days of tending to our rose bushes, we now have fertilizer for the garden that when applied on day 81, will partially make up for the first 80 days of abuse/mistreating the garden.
And especially the part where you mention any other option is unacceptable? This same feeling is permeating through my entire being and is manifesting as motivation/drive for success.
Nice to know that you're experiencing a similar breakthrough at a similar time.
