DMSI v3.0.1

[Shannon]

Shannon,

I'm running part A.

First few days I felt very happy and energized. I still feel energized but less happy.

I've been having very weird dreams. Some I can't remember but I just remember them being weird. So that "keeping the healing out of consciousness" seems to be working.

One weird dream involved me talking with a famous actor about what it was like being a sex symbol. I guess I'm preparing for my future, and seeking advice from the best.

I feel more and more disinterested in women. Seems so counter intuitive. There are even days I want to avoid women.

Women who do talk with me generally seem to enjoy their time and look flushed in the face. Although before the DMSI series this might happen about 5 to 10% of the time, it's now more about 30 to 50% of the time.

I've had some women start conversations with me. One woman I've known for months came up and hugged me. (She's never done that before.) Some women are seeming nervous around me. It seems women who are younger (18 to 26 years old) are much more likely to look nervous, uncertain, or flustered. It's as if they don't know how to process me. I'll also joke around or tease them and it's as though they don't know how to process that either. It's like their minds are some where else. Like it's taking all their energy to "hold it together". I don't know how else to describe it. At least they're not giving me the alien stare.

Other times women I know (and I've known for months) will start conversations with me, and within 1 or 2 minutes of conversation they become very quiet. As in they just don't seem to want to talk. I wonder if they are experiencing a reset effect and a bit confused.

Any thoughts you have I'd appreciate.

I would say you are in a state of deep and profound growth and change below the surface and you're seeing bits and pieces of this reflected in the reactions and responses of the people you interact with. But it's not finished yet.

I think they are in shock at just how awesome you are. Literally, in awe of you. What's happening is that they are being affected and their perceptions are shifting to rest at "stunningly high status, stunningly high value, stunningly attractive" and they don't know how to handle this because it's never happened to them in the moment before.

That's what I think.