12-10-2016, 04:36 AM
(This post was last modified: 12-10-2016, 05:08 AM by AlphaScorpio.)
Day 9
Strange fatigue again, long lie ins, lots of brain fog. Weird thing happened this morning.
I was on computer browsing and one of the students who lives with me just knocked on my door, I had my earphones in so I wasn't sure if it was front door or my room's door, he comes in and sits on my chair like no deal while I'm still in my dressing gown normally I or the person walking in would be embarrassed or uptight etc. I initially felt surprised as he had never done this before, then I realized he was just wanting a chat cause the other students were in their rooms or out at work. I felt sympathy, almost glad that he felt no fear about coming into my room, I want people to feel open with me and vise versa.
The chinese student living with my parents (16 year old) was looking at me alot when I went round yesterday for a visit. I walked past her once and she teasingly went to punch me (as I showed her a video of a guy punching a kangaroo to save his dog) noticed she's more playful and less timid around me but very enamoured by my presence.
Finding it hard to make sense of what's going on in my head but I think this is an interesting development, something's shifting.
P.S. Curiously I found a nostalgic child video (I've been very nostalgic since starting 3.01A) that I had been looking for for YEARS... Interesting time I had found it in now, almost like I need to reconnect to the past to process changes and healing.
Strange fatigue again, long lie ins, lots of brain fog. Weird thing happened this morning.
I was on computer browsing and one of the students who lives with me just knocked on my door, I had my earphones in so I wasn't sure if it was front door or my room's door, he comes in and sits on my chair like no deal while I'm still in my dressing gown normally I or the person walking in would be embarrassed or uptight etc. I initially felt surprised as he had never done this before, then I realized he was just wanting a chat cause the other students were in their rooms or out at work. I felt sympathy, almost glad that he felt no fear about coming into my room, I want people to feel open with me and vise versa.
The chinese student living with my parents (16 year old) was looking at me alot when I went round yesterday for a visit. I walked past her once and she teasingly went to punch me (as I showed her a video of a guy punching a kangaroo to save his dog) noticed she's more playful and less timid around me but very enamoured by my presence.
Finding it hard to make sense of what's going on in my head but I think this is an interesting development, something's shifting.
P.S. Curiously I found a nostalgic child video (I've been very nostalgic since starting 3.01A) that I had been looking for for YEARS... Interesting time I had found it in now, almost like I need to reconnect to the past to process changes and healing.
