12-07-2016, 11:09 AM
(This post was last modified: 12-07-2016, 11:24 AM by AlphaScorpio.)
Day 6
Switched to 45/100 volume as I think 55 was too loud.
Feeling angry about guys in relationships and also angry towards people who have big egos, might be some healing at work here but I dont know for sure.
Just want to be on my own when I get home, I get sick fairly quickly conversing with the guys in my house share they're 21-25 and go to the local university, all they do is sit in the living room watching TV, on their phones or one of them spending hours on skype to the GF, one of the big egos even jokingly said "Isn't that workaholic?" when I mentioned I had been at the workshop on the weekend helping my Dad sort through and organize the spacing. Was reading about people dragging you down as you become more self motivated/independent and this could be what's going on perhaps. My ideal scenario is to get my own flat.
Frustration. I'm doing pretty welll at work, feeling productive, learning skills etc. I have an insatiable desire to learn more and get better at things, real motivation time almost feels too short. This is a stark contrast from where I was a year ago sitting in my room doing fuck all, I'm making good progress need to keep things in perspective, but yeah I think DMSI is pushing me to be even more independent and self sufficient and I'm getting annoyed when the guys ask me where I've been, I'm thinking I have my own fucking life to get on with...
/rantover
P.S. - No desire to watch porn since 3.01, instead I have gone to looking at real women on FB or just my imagination. (On 2.5 I felt compelled to watch porn)
-Orgasms feel more intense
Switched to 45/100 volume as I think 55 was too loud.
Feeling angry about guys in relationships and also angry towards people who have big egos, might be some healing at work here but I dont know for sure.
Just want to be on my own when I get home, I get sick fairly quickly conversing with the guys in my house share they're 21-25 and go to the local university, all they do is sit in the living room watching TV, on their phones or one of them spending hours on skype to the GF, one of the big egos even jokingly said "Isn't that workaholic?" when I mentioned I had been at the workshop on the weekend helping my Dad sort through and organize the spacing. Was reading about people dragging you down as you become more self motivated/independent and this could be what's going on perhaps. My ideal scenario is to get my own flat.
Frustration. I'm doing pretty welll at work, feeling productive, learning skills etc. I have an insatiable desire to learn more and get better at things, real motivation time almost feels too short. This is a stark contrast from where I was a year ago sitting in my room doing fuck all, I'm making good progress need to keep things in perspective, but yeah I think DMSI is pushing me to be even more independent and self sufficient and I'm getting annoyed when the guys ask me where I've been, I'm thinking I have my own fucking life to get on with...
/rantover
P.S. - No desire to watch porn since 3.01, instead I have gone to looking at real women on FB or just my imagination. (On 2.5 I felt compelled to watch porn)
-Orgasms feel more intense
