Day 4 - Flac + Hybrid Trickling Stream + Earbuds on 4-5 out of 15 notches
Had a weird-ass dream about my father. Can't remember the details of it, but I believe it was related to an event that occurred when I was in elementary. I had bad grades, and I remember seeing other fathers being all lovey-dovey (in a fatherly way) with their sons. After that, I asked him when we were alone - why aren't we like that? He responded - when you get good grades, we will be.
I believe that was getting cleared out with that dream (since I believe a father is supposed to support his children without creating an ultimatum like that - but, he did have his own problems then, so I can't blame him). I don't know why I think so, but it was one of the first things that I connected to the dream.
Now, for something more interesting.
Went to university today. Sat next to a petite girl (not too special.. okay figure, but the face and teeth not so much). I never talked to her for a longer time, only "hello's". This time I chatted with her a few times.
Sooooo. The interesting part - she would be SUPER close to me. To the point where it was uncomfortable for me slightly. Yup, that close. At first, I didn't keep eye contact, but then I said fuck it, why not hold it. I actually think she did the "triangle stare", but I'm not sure. Might be me falsely reconstructing my memory now.
But, what I do remember is this. As we were talking and listening to the lecture, she rests her head on my arm. I didn't react in any way, and after about 5-10 seconds she lifts it.
Moreover, she touches my leg on the outside. Accidentally.
But we all know that there are no accidents when girls touch, right?
At the end, she asked me something like - "why aren't you ever coming out with us during the evenings?". We have a group in WhatsApp, and whoever goes out says something like "I'm going out at this place with him and her etc", and the rest are free to join.
Of course, I usually continue working, unless they invite me specifically, haha.
In the same day, another girl who was touchy with me before, but I actually hanged out with her before, was a little touchy again. She would slightly touch my hand, or laugh and touch me.
The interesting part - she asked for a hug with her hands wide open. I hugged her (our hips were pretty close to each other, so that might be telling something ), and lifted her up. She wrapped her legs around me, and was like "we can't have sex yet!" or something like that. I'm not sure what she said, but she mentioned sex.
We were with two friends then (one guy, one girl), and they both went "oooooooh". So, couldn't really escalate or anything (and I do kinda suck at escalating, lol.. gotta work on that).
Also, had 2 nosebleeds today. First one in the shower (hot one), and other one outside, after class, in the cold (maybe the temperature change, since from warm class to cold outside). I asked around our Skype group, no one got these symptoms, so it's probably just me (I naturally get nosebleeds from time to time, so no need to alarm yourself, lol).
Another interesting thing..
MY FACE IS CHANGING.
IT IS PHYSICALLY CHANGING.
I AM NOT FUCKING KIDDING YOU NOW.
IT IS CHANGING.
I asked in our group and sent photos from the first day of DMSI 3.0 (or just before starting it, can't remember). So, 3-4 days ago.
I also sent a photo of me now (literally an hour ago taken photo).
Quoting Chaos here :
"That's creepy
your face is changing
n**** your face is changing"
The general consensus is that my face looks sharper, edgier. I thought I was imagining it at the beginning, so I asked in the group. Yup. It's physically changing.
And I'm loving it.
Shannon, you're a fucking genius.
P.S Chaos has the best reactions.
P.P.S If anyone wants to join the Skype group, PM me.
Had a weird-ass dream about my father. Can't remember the details of it, but I believe it was related to an event that occurred when I was in elementary. I had bad grades, and I remember seeing other fathers being all lovey-dovey (in a fatherly way) with their sons. After that, I asked him when we were alone - why aren't we like that? He responded - when you get good grades, we will be.
I believe that was getting cleared out with that dream (since I believe a father is supposed to support his children without creating an ultimatum like that - but, he did have his own problems then, so I can't blame him). I don't know why I think so, but it was one of the first things that I connected to the dream.
Now, for something more interesting.
Went to university today. Sat next to a petite girl (not too special.. okay figure, but the face and teeth not so much). I never talked to her for a longer time, only "hello's". This time I chatted with her a few times.
Sooooo. The interesting part - she would be SUPER close to me. To the point where it was uncomfortable for me slightly. Yup, that close. At first, I didn't keep eye contact, but then I said fuck it, why not hold it. I actually think she did the "triangle stare", but I'm not sure. Might be me falsely reconstructing my memory now.
But, what I do remember is this. As we were talking and listening to the lecture, she rests her head on my arm. I didn't react in any way, and after about 5-10 seconds she lifts it.
Moreover, she touches my leg on the outside. Accidentally.
But we all know that there are no accidents when girls touch, right?
At the end, she asked me something like - "why aren't you ever coming out with us during the evenings?". We have a group in WhatsApp, and whoever goes out says something like "I'm going out at this place with him and her etc", and the rest are free to join.
Of course, I usually continue working, unless they invite me specifically, haha.
In the same day, another girl who was touchy with me before, but I actually hanged out with her before, was a little touchy again. She would slightly touch my hand, or laugh and touch me.
The interesting part - she asked for a hug with her hands wide open. I hugged her (our hips were pretty close to each other, so that might be telling something
), and lifted her up. She wrapped her legs around me, and was like "we can't have sex yet!" or something like that. I'm not sure what she said, but she mentioned sex.We were with two friends then (one guy, one girl), and they both went "oooooooh". So, couldn't really escalate or anything (and I do kinda suck at escalating, lol.. gotta work on that).
Also, had 2 nosebleeds today. First one in the shower (hot one), and other one outside, after class, in the cold (maybe the temperature change, since from warm class to cold outside). I asked around our Skype group, no one got these symptoms, so it's probably just me (I naturally get nosebleeds from time to time, so no need to alarm yourself, lol).
Another interesting thing..
MY FACE IS CHANGING.
IT IS PHYSICALLY CHANGING.
I AM NOT FUCKING KIDDING YOU NOW.
IT IS CHANGING.
I asked in our group and sent photos from the first day of DMSI 3.0 (or just before starting it, can't remember). So, 3-4 days ago.
I also sent a photo of me now (literally an hour ago taken photo).
Quoting Chaos here :
"That's creepy
your face is changing
n**** your face is changing"
The general consensus is that my face looks sharper, edgier. I thought I was imagining it at the beginning, so I asked in the group. Yup. It's physically changing.
And I'm loving it.
Shannon, you're a fucking genius.
P.S Chaos has the best reactions.
P.P.S If anyone wants to join the Skype group, PM me.
