12-04-2016, 03:43 PM
I encountered this conflicting thought. I don't "feel" like I fit in but a part of me doesn't want to. I watched the new brad Pitt movie today and now I'm going to watch girl on a train. I feel my thought process change as I write this. It's been a do nothing sort of day. I kind of picture myself as a mercenary. Meaning someone who does what they want when they want completely independent for some coin. So being out I've noticed my emotions calm a bit I feel very hype after 10-12 hours of sub exposure mostly because it is some credit. Maybe I feel like I fit in this new city I live in. I don't feel like I have to be a threat and I can just be myself. I guess what I always used to think made me detached was the idea that the subliminal was going to catch up to how I thought about myself now it's gone beyond that and I don't have to worry.
